Hello,
I guess I will start by saying that it's a good feeling to know that I am not alone. You know how it is in the "community". Mental health, obesity, and other topics are more than stigmatized...they are out right TABOO. Which I find ironic because we, as a group, have more reasons (not even just excuses) to suffer from those ills the most. Anyway, here I am finally admitting that 1- I AM morbidly obese and 2- I need HELP dealing with it.
I felt like my life was just about perfect. God has been so good to me. I have a wonderful husband, beautiful son, dream job, and honey a Cadillac car! Seems like my life all came together except one thing...my big butt doesn't fit into it. I mean, here I was so happy to praise God and spread love and thinking that I am doing HIS will for my life...but lying to myself and all those around me the whole time. Rebuking FAT does NOT work. My life is far from perfect. In fact, my life will be over very shortly if I am not PROACTIVE about my declining health NOW.
I have watched my aunts lose feet, use canes to walk, and pass away because they have fallen for the lie that black women are just naturally supposed to be BIG BONEDED. And while genetics may contribute to the shape of our bodies, that is NO excuse to accept the shape we are in.
So, the long and short of it is this... I made the decision to do the REAL will of God. He calls for us to lay aside every way that so easily besets us. I am making lifestyle changes that lay aside my greediness with good food, my lazy attitude toward working out, and I am not ashamed to say, my envious hating of other woman who APPEAR to be able to control their weight. My decision to get "sleeved" is based on the fact that my weight is so out of control that I need to utilize every tool available to me.
Now... I am prepared for the haters who are going to say I am on crack or got "The Package". I am prepared for my friends and family to ask me why I "bought" my body instead of doing things the good old fashioned way. I am prepared for the grief of my old relationship with food. My hope is that joining this group will help me deal with those things I may encounter that I am not prepared for.
I look forward to sharing my journey and getting to know some of your journeys along they way.