Don't feel your alone in this battle. I to had my surgery done in Oct. 2005 and have gained 60% back. My doctor quit practicing and so did I. I depended on him and did not get another fill till now. Just the fact that you've addressed the need to restart is an achievement. All my friends and family know now as I want their help and support. I don't care what others think or say, this is for me. I am new on this forum but have talked to many banders over the years. Time for me to practice what I have preached. I would wish you luck but you don't need luck, you need to believe in you and why your doing this. It has to be for you! Were all here just email away!