Missy<3

THE DAY HAS FINALLY COME!! I had a really tough week on the pre-op diet...I seriously had a Toni Braxton, Unbreak My Heart, ugly cries in the shower this week due to me being so hungry and feeling so weak, but the day has finally come. I have an hour until I start my drive up to La Jolla, CA for my surgery. I have a sense of accomplishment because I didnt cheat on my pre-op diet and also because I have gone through so much in these past couple of years due to complications with my band. At the same time, I also have this looming sense of fear penetrating every nerve in my body. I've questioned my decision all week; am I doing the right thing? The right thing for me? But at this point I am convinced that I am. I am ready for a new life, or shall I say my second shot at a new life. I had a horrible experience with the band and never enjoyed my first shot at being thin because I was extremely unhealthy, and I am praying for a different outcome this time around. So here I am packed, ready to go...I dolled up for my doctor cause he's a dreamboat, well, dolled up as much as I could being that I can't wear makeup Oh! I forgot to mention, I lost 16lbs on my 6 day pre-op diet... hell yeah!!! Wish me luck!!!!

11 days until the rest of my life begins and I am overcome with excitement and fear at the same time...so I'm like a scary/excited looney person. Hehe. I have been through this once before (with my botched lapband surgery) but this is FOR-EV-ERRR (and yes, I do say that like Squints from the Sandlot). I have faith and have 100% confidence in my Dr. He is absolutely great. He has taken such good care of me through the removal of my eroded band and has continued through the process of getting sleeved. I am hoping to be another success story for this procedure. Although I am uber excited, I still have a looming sense of fear in the back of my mind because I recall being this excited for my lapband surgery. I really don't want to let myself down again...yes, I do feel like I let myself down with my band. The reason as to why I feel I let myself down is because I gained all of my weight back with some extra bonus pounds. My poor 27yr old body has taken a severe hit by all my weight loss/gain. I will be starting my liquid pre-op diet on Sunday and am slowly trying to rid myself of all the stuff I like, especially coffee. Nothing in the world makes me happier than an iced coffee with half n' half ... *sigh. If anyone has any tips on how to motivate myself during my pre-op diet please share THANKS!!!

ahhhhhh PEPSIIIIII!!! Im trying to keep myself busy but I feel like my days are in slow mode. I am ready for these few days to be over with Best of luck!!

Hi Everyone! So, today is my first day of liquids and let me tell you, its been a rough day. I had a slight breakdown when I saw everyone eating but I took a minute and reminded myself of the reason I was going through this. So, here I am, looking for support and for motivation to push through this. I keep reading that peoples experiences with the sleeve has been completely different with that of the band. If anyone can go into more detail I would appreciate it. hope you all are having a good day!

Positive thinking leads to positive things Trying to stay focused! excited!!!

OMG!!! 4 week diet?!?! All liquids?!?! I am on day 2 and I am somewhat more at ease than yesterday but have a killer headache. I am thinking its the caffeine withdrawl, I am a huge coffee drinker (starbucks and I go way back) I know I can have tea, but I am really picky with artificial sweetener so I'm staying away from it. I am dreading being at home for dinner tonight, the smell of food just stimulated every sense and makes you want food even more. I am happy to know that you can get through it!! It gives me hope!! Good luck on the next 2 weeks, we are on the path to a better and healthier version of ourselves and I am excited!

I'm getting operated at Scripps Green in La Jolla. I had my gastric band surgery in Mexico in 2005 and I don't want to scare you with my experiences, but I trust that all will be well with you. I have a lot of work to do as well before my surgery and a lot of nerves to calm, but first things first I need to get through this 5 day liquid fast :) Where are you having your procedure at Hospital Angeles?

My surgery is scheduled for the 3rd at 7:30am and I am in total freak-out mode. I started my liquid diet early (by a day) and I am having a hard day so far. I keep telling myself that it will get better but since I have been through this once before with my band surgery I know that it will only get a little better...& I will still be hungry. I stocked up on diet snapple, sugar free hawaiian punch and some of that mio liquid stuff but I am so hungry I cannot even think straight. I refrained from any kind of binge eating before my liquid journey simply because I know that would only expand my tummy and make me even more hungry. I know this is all mental but I think it's not only the liquid fast but I think its the fear of something happeneing to me like the last time. Ahh!! Well if anyone can help calm my nerves and kinda help me stay focused for the next 6 days I would appreciate all the help! 6 days and counting... I am excited, scared, excited, scared, hungry, excited probably in that order as well Have a great day! BTW, where is everyone from, I am from San Diego, CA

AGREED!! I just keep telling myself that it's a new and fresh start and when I look at all my old pictures of when I was thin I am reminded of just how much more self confidence I had. I don't want to be categorized as the girl with the cute face anymore, I want to be the girl with the cute face, and a healthy and a slammin body too! (hehe) I'm excited!! and I am excited for you!! It's nice to hear from people experiencing the same feelings; makes you feel youre not alone in this journey.

My port site is actually healed up and not too much discomfort except for when i lay on the tummy. Have any of you had trouble sleeping? I used to have to sleep sitting up when I had the band and thats one of my worries. Ahhh, I am so nervous! only 11 more days and each day feels like its flying by!!!

So needless to say I am quite scared of the entire surgery process... I was banded in 2005 and after 3.5 years of constant regurgitation and extreme weight loss/hair loss/ thrush/ sever malnurisment (151lbs to be exact) and a constant battle with my physican over something being horribly wrong with my band, which I felt the entire time. I later found out it had eroded. I had has the lapband in my stomach wall for 2 years and within those two years I have gained every pound back with some bonus pounds. Since then I've gotten my band removed (by a different doctor which I love!!!) and submitted my paper work for gastic sleeve. I am scared beyond belief that something will go wrong just because I have had so much adbominal trauma in the past year, but I am confident in my Dr. this time around and reading everyones updates is really encouraging. So here we go...19 days and counting for my 2nd chance at a new life. <3

Thanks kekerene and Tera! I hope they do remove all the evidence of my botched lap band surgery. I am so excited for the surgery there is just a looming sense of fear, which I know is normal but I hope everything turns out well So you don't feel that horrible pressure you would feel with the band?! Omg, now I am stoked!!! ~Missy