Hi, im new to this site and was just having a read of all the comments. I have just had the operation (gastric-band) inJune and have lost 15kg to date. You are pretty hard on yourself. Instead of saying "NO" allow yourself to say "YES" and then control the portion size. My understanding is the whole purpose of having the op allows us to get away from thinking "DIET" . I just finished University and due to the pressure i put all my weight (43kg) back on that i had lost naturally in the last year of uni. That was because i would snack (comfort eat) when i felt stressed so i know how you feel. Take small steps, I brought myself a treadmil a few years ago, i done a half hour walk every second day to lose the 43kg so i have just gone back to that regime post op. You don't need to incur the cost of a treadmil, just committ to walking every second day for half an hour (that will cost you nothiong) Regarding your thinking, start keeping a journal of what you are doing and reflect on this to pull out what habits have come about that are impinging your journey. Hope these strategies help, good luck.