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Hello! I am the mother of 5 and I have battled weight since high school graduation. I have at 250 pounds now and 5'3. This is the heaviest I have ever been and I am tired. I am tired of missing family reunions, tired of hiding from cameras,. tired of discrimination in lookign for a new teachign job! I want my life back and I want to live long and healthy. With that said, I am scared! I backed out of gastric bypass 30 minutes before surgery a year ago. I wanted the Sleeve then, but it was not offered. I am now with a new docotr I adore and am ready to embark on a new life. Somehow my greatest lingering fear is am going to 1. miss the social aspect of eating with my family and friends, and 2. I wil be shortening my life with the surgery. I know this is silly,l but they are little lingering fears. As an educated woman i need this, I haev a slow metabolism, I am older, and it is so hard to lose weight. I want to put this chapter in my life in reverse and regain myself. I am curious, how soon after surgery do you feel a sense of normal again. Will I be shakey and weak as I lose weight? How is the pain after surgery/ Guys I am going through with this this time. I have no choice I am flying to Dallas ) I really want this - is it normal to be afraid? Any help at all will be a comfort. God bless each and every one of you! Your blogs are so helpful! Diane

I feel like I have a group of friends. I am going to do this. I know it is what I need. I am curious about hunger. During the liquid phase....is the hunger a difficult battle? What about nausea....that is one of my greatest fears being nauseated. I also have a question about longevity. Are there any studies about how this affects longevity. Sure being heavy is unhealthy, but what about the durability of the procedure say 30 years down the road. My only other question as I sit in the middle of nowhere NM literally with no one in this region who has ever undergon this procedure how is returning to work. I am a teacher and I fear feeling weak and light headed. Is that a problem and can it be remidied. When I diet now and severly restrict my calories I get gnawing pain and hunger that drives me to blow the diet. After the procedure is this a problem? Thank you everyone for your kind support. I know in a couple weeks I will look back and laugh at myself for being so silly. Bless each of you with wonderful health and vitality - God Bless you! DIane

Thank you both....I need this and I know I want the outcome. It is the process that is terrifying me!

Congratulations....i am so afraid I am thinking of backing out or switching to lapband.....I am afraid of feeling sick afterwards and the acid reflux.....pain is not a fear for me as I have survived a 4.5 pound tumor and major surgery....I cannot tolerate nausea.....I am 8 hours from my doctor so there is little prep and interaction....I am supposed to schedule surgery sometime this month! HELP for the fearful!