I'm sorry you are having a tough time. I know how it can play tricks on your mind. Don't let your old habits break you down. You went through a lot of trouble to have this procedure done, so try to remember how important you are and that you are worth every effort your give yourself.
I do understand how you feel because I am only 3 weeks out and between my two week pre-surgery liquid diet and the surgery, I am down 28 pounds. I should not complain, but just to let you know how I understand, I had one week where I gained two pounds. This was a week where I was allowed to now have pureed and was afraid to and had hardly anything all week, maybe one meal a day and I GAINED two pounds. I was so so angry. And even since then, I am losing very, very slowly.
I was just on the open chat and people are saying they are losing a pound a day!!! Why isn't that happening to me??? But every person is different. As long as we stay on track and exercise, there is NO reason why the weight will not start to come off. Give yourself a chance. Hang in there!!
Best of luck! Keep in touch.
Kelly