Dreamer88

Hey everyone! I'm Alisha from Michigan, surgery scheduled for Sept 16th. I will be a revision from lap band. I had my band removed in May after too many problems. Had my first baby a month an 1/2 before that, so I am a new mother. I don't know if that is affecting my thought process or what, but I am TERRIFIED. I don't remember being this scared before my band. Mind you I've had tonsils removed, gallbladder removed, lap band in, c-section, and lap band out. Anyone else in my boat?!

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I keep telling myself all those same things. And also why did I put all this effort into the 6 month documentation if I wasn't going to do it? I chickened out of the band once before I actually went through with it as well, and everything turned out ok with that. I didn't keel over or anything!

I had the Lap Band in 2011, lost about 50 lbs and had lots of the normal complications. food not going down, productive burps, vomiting, resorting to slider foods, weight gain, port site pain, etc. So after the birth of my son I decided to have my Lap Band removed in May (2014). I spoke to my doc about revision, he was ok with it but I had to do all the presurgery crap again due to staff not properly documenting. They were afraid my insurance would not cover revision if I didn't jump through the hoops again because ins wouldn't cover it for just having port pain. So I have one more family doc appt, my psych eval was good and she approved me for surgery, I got my date of Sept 16th last week, and I am finding myself going back and forth questioning whether or not I am ready for this. For me, it's now or never. I am 25 so am still under my mothers ins which pays 100% for surgery, however in Nov I will be 26 and I will carry insurance from the hospital I work at and the coverage sucks. My first thought is that I am terrified of complications. I am scared something will go wrong and I won't be here for my son(he's 4 months) and I get mad at myself thinking how selfish this is to want to risk all this just to be skinny? Am I crazy? I don't know if it's because its a more invasive surgery and it's permanent where as lap band wasn't, or if it's because I'm a mother now, but I am overcome by fear. Anyone else have this irrational fear almost stop you from going through with it? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

I am having the same anxiety about revision. My son is only 4 months old and I am terrified something will happen and he won't have me, I won't get to see him grow up, etc. It's really giving me second thoughts on a daily basis. I keep trying to tell myself that I need to have this surgery, there are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. Nothing so far in my entire obese life has worked for me and my quality of life sucks. I want to be able to run and play with him and not be tired and aching all the time. I have had to do 6 months of insurance crap again this time around because my insurance wouldn't pay or revision to sleeve fo port pain and no one had documented the trouble swallowing and vomiting. The psychiatrist just ok'd me for surgery which means I have 2 more appts with my family doctor and I'm set to go. Shouldn't I be more excited? I am scared of failure this time around. The sleeve didn't work for me and wasn't helpful, what makes me think this surgery will be?

I am havin revision surgery in Sept. Ha lots and lots of complications with the band, yet nothing saying I had dysphagia (problems swallowing) was documented in my char. I had port site pain since I had the lap band done and that was documented, but my insurance company wouldn't deem revision "medically necessary". They could take the ban out with no problems, but may have not covered revision. So I have had t go through all the same stuff as I had to before I got my band ( 6 months documented dieting, pych eval, etc, etc). They will do it as a new surgery but you have to jump through hoops again. That is how it is with my insurance anyways. I have Blue Cross Blue Shield of Michigan.

Love these questions! I have also had all these problems with the band and also had mine removed in may. Unfortunately, I have to go through all the insurance junk again because the nurses at my clinic never documented my complications and they were afraid my revision wouldn't be paid for if i didn't. I was ok'd for surgery after my psych eval yesterday and have an appt with my surgeon Aug 14th! Hoping to schedule in sept and so excited but as you said- very scared.

So glad I found this post...Girlfriend...I feel the exact same way right now. I've gained about 20 lbs of my lost weight back in the last 6 months after getting into a serious relationship. It's tough. My boyrfriend can literally eat whatever he wants and never gain a pound. And he eats A LOT!!!! I was scared to go to the doctor too because I was so disgusted with myself, but I finally broke down and called the doctor and nutritionist today. It's all about wanting it bad enough. If you don't want it bad enough you won't take the time to do it. I absolutely know how it feels to be sooo unmotivated from being so depressed and disappointed in yourself! All it takes is one day. One day to start to be better than who you were yesterday. And if one day you fail, try again tomorrow!!