Gastronaut

Hi folks!! Been stalking this forum for a few days now.... finally took plunge. Its amazing how wonderfully supportive, gracious and open people are on this forum...Me...well...iam just getting into the swing of things...! Iam around 35...a 5ft 11inch guy weighing in at about 300lbs -my top weight!!........ashamed of myself...and trying hard not to be ...cant believe i let myself get this way !! have decided to get sleeved next month....understandably, my family is very worried and are praying that i'll be safe. iam lucky that iam fairly fit for my size (quoting my doc) (can walk about 1.5 hours do light weights and burn about 400 calories). but cannot lose more than a couple of pounds ... i work out regularly and dont have any co-morbid conditions as of now... ...however i have a problem with food and self control which makes me feel terrible...i kinda see this surgery as a way to punish myself for letting me get this way!!! i know that's wrong...but its just the way i feel. am terribly scared of needles so the thought of 6 -7 holes in my stomach is terrifying..... the stress is causing me to binge... but still trying to hang in there. Hope i dont sound too pathetic!!! have put my life on hold for last several years trying to get thin......dont know what to do...I just want to get "Normal" so bad...get my confidence right back....get my life back!!!!!!! one question... if we have the ability to restrict what we eat after surgery ...to lose weight...why cant we restrict what we eat without the surgery....is this hunger thing over-rated...i dont even know what hunger is and not sure I can recognize it ...I just eat anyway !! have any of you felt this way or am I the only weirdo?

Thank you Brian, really appreciate all the support...you and others on this forum have been very inspiring. your stories make me realize that Iam not the only one ....

Thanks Luckykar...iam glad you had a uneventful surgery...will pray that you are successful!!

thanks razrbakcrzy, your story is truly one I can identify with. the post op diet sounds so intimidating....but I know its a fork in the road...no pun intended...and I will need to make a choice... will miss those baby back ribs though!!!

thanks smokymtngal2011, I think you are right, i'll have to learn to- eat to live rather than live to eat!! appreciate your insight!!