OMG....thanks everyone for your encouraging words....I am so happy I joined this community. The responses actually brought tears to my eyes (ok so I am pms'n too lol) But seriously, I wish I had found this place sooner. But this is my time. I am not looking back any longer. Every day it gets a lil harder to get out of bed and I know its because of the aches, pains, lack of sleep, and just feeling plain icky. My body is tired of this mass that I have been carrying around for all these years. Thanks again...I am home!