JustDoIt130

I am sorry for that, but I applaud your attitude! You can STILL do this!! You can still be healthy, still lose weight, still attain all your goals!!!!

I'll bet that guy is worried that you'll lose weight and dump him like she did...he is insecure!

Hi there everyone! Horsegirl- I too think that I will need to track if I want to lose- I'm too.....not accurate....with my calorie counts otherwise, LOL. Lady Bandido- yes, I think I will have a psychological moment around 184- that was the lowest I've been in 20 years, and that was about 8 years ago now. So we'll see! Give it some extra workouts and you'll bust through that plateau for sure and make your goal! It's always better for me to have goals to get to, then I have something to work towards. As for me- I'm trying to decide if I'm too tight. I had my first bad stuck episode at work yesterday, and they don't know I"m banded- and at my new job the potty is RIGHT THERE. But I hid it pretty well, I got stuck on a chicken wing- didn't chew, ate while talking, too big a bite, you know the drill. Then went out to dinner with the fam and didn't get stuck but felt like I was going to so didn't eat much, then last night ate a couple bites of quesadilla and got stuck again, not as bad. So I'm HUNGRY now- but WID was good, down about 4.5 lbs to 202.5!! Almost to Onederland, that's my goal for the end of the month. So with all this PB'ing and...well, to be gross...tossing my Cookies, I worry about a band slip. I know it's not coming from the lower stomach, it's coming from my pouch, so I'm not worried about ruining my teeth with the vomiting, but I know this can't be good. I think I just really need to be more mindful and as I lose more weight my band will loosen a smidge. I can keep things down, it's not like everything comes back up, but it's almost every day I'm having an episode since my fill a week ago. I guess I haven't learned how to eat with a much tighter band! Nicki

That is awesome! Congratulations, that is a BIG victory!!!!

Do you have a YMCA nearby? They have scholarships for memberships and LOTS of exercise options, pools (some), good equipment, a good environment. I love the Y.

You do what is best for you!! And do still post, we can help- sometimes just the venting helps!!!!

Hi everyone, glad to see posts! Nicole- I didn't mean you should be hard on yourself, just not take a total break. Like for me, I have 1 day a week that I totally "cheat" on- for me that means lots of ice cream. Lots. So I do it once a week instead of every day like it was, and it's easier to stick with it during the week. I don't beat myself up though if I have little slips during the week or don't exercise every day....I am learning to be good to myself. Meredith- yay for you for passing by Auntie Ann's! I too would take any mall excursion as an excuse to indulge- pretzels, Orange Julius, etc. That is a HUGE nsv! Yep, you'll have to get into a routine with eating for sure- it is easy to do a Protein drink in the AM, especially now that I really am tighter in the morning! And it starts my day with a good boost of protein. Chrissy- good for you being super busy! I'm glad the job is going well. A few bad eats will not undo all the work we've done, and life will happen after all! Good for you getting back to the gym. Lady Bandido- nice to see you! I think you're right, challenges for sure. Maybe you could schedule your fill earlier this month so if you have issues you can get it resolved before you go on vacation- if you feel like you're hungry and need it. As for me, this last fill really has me tight! Not too tight, I think, I still drink just fine and eat if I'm really mindful- which I should be. I am taking way too big of bites, and not chewing enough, which had me stuck badly at a restaurant with the family on Friday night, and then badly stuck again yesterday at dinner. And I WAY overindulged in ice cream yesterday and still feel sick,didn't sleep well at all, feel sick to my stomach today. I can't workout at lunch today as my car is in the shop, so I can't get to the Y. Tomorrow our company is doing a walk for 9/11, a 5 k, so I'll get that in at least. So much stress, so many things to worry about- but I am still worth it, life is always going to have at least SOME stress, so I'm just going to suck it up and drive on, LOL. Everyone have a great day! Nicki

I think that isn't the best idea...but will support whatever you decide. Here's my thoughts...how good did u feel about yourself before wls? Probably not that great, hence the surgery. Life is ALWAYS going to have stress in it. ALWAYS. You will be better able to cope if you're healthy and feel better about yourself. Don't think of it as another stress. Think of it as something for YOU. Something that will make you feel better. You made a big decision when you got lapband surgery. Don't forget the reasons why you did it in the first place. I know its not easy, but imvho its sooo worth it. Why are you feeling this way? What happened?

Down .5 lbs to 207. That is my halfway mark- 77 lbs down, 77 to go!

OK people, post!!! I need you too!!!!

Yay, it's the Nicki Show! LOL This fill is pretty tight. I kind of forgot that I'd need to take it slow and relearn how to eat after a fill. I had a small stuck episode last night at dinner, but I was taking bigger bites. I'll see how today goes. I can definitely drink and get things down. Workout at the Y today, I upped the resistance (thanks Nicole!) and got even more sweaty, LOL. IT's a journey, right??? Everyone have a great day! Nicki

Hi all!! I did get a fill- my doctor won't tell me how much he gives, but the PA does, and my next appt is with her. I kind of "complained" to my doc that I'd only lost 4 lbs in August. He said, "4 lbs is doing really well. The 10 lbs a month you've been losing is not usual." I said, "so stop complaining?" and he kind of laughed and said yah. LOL. So it's slowed, but it's still going. I lost .5 lbs last week. It's just frustrating because I'm 7 lbs away from Onederland, and it's my goal to be out of Twoderville by the end of the month! We'll see. This fill- I am tight this morning! Of course liquids and yogurt yesterday. This morning's shake took a lot longer to go down and was more gurgleing going down. I have mashed potatoes and canned chicken for lunch, we'll see how that goes down. I don't think I'm too tight, but we'll see. Meredith- I've had that discussion with DH- that he's upset about me being successful and looking good, he denies it. We're under a WHOLE bunch of stress- he's on disability- short term, now if it goes to long term his company will make him file for social security disability, a lot of financial stress, etc. So it's everything all together, and he's not good at handling it at the best of times, let alone the worst, LOL. Oh well. Working out today, burn some calories and some frustration! I did get some new earphones that hopefully will stay in when my ears get sweaty, LOL. Everyone have a great day! Nicki

Hi everyone. I am just kind of blah today. Had an okay weekend, but had 3 big bowls of ice cream on Sunday instead of 2- because I was frustratred with DH. It's okay, I logged it and owned it, and only did it on Sunday- but I looked at my weight journal and only lost 4 lbs all of August- even with being pretty consistant with exercise. Obviously it's the food... And on that note, I have a fill today. DH asked me why I'd have a fill since I have had pretty "good" pb episodes a couple times a week. But it's been with really dry chicken- so obviously I can't eat really dry chicken any more! Also, stress tends to tighten me up and it's been pretty tense at my house, so that's probably part of it. DH has been a real a$$- he accuses me of being "obsessed" with weight loss and logging and exercising. He's the reason why I HAVE to pretty much squeeze in exercise at lunch because he gets mad if I exercise on "family" time. I'm getting pretty frustrated. I think I"m worth a little time too. He gets his walk in- HIS is important. I'm just really frustrated and mad and - pissed off, truthfully. I finally am on track and being successful and he's trying to sabotage me, I feel. I said that to him too and he denies it of course. Grrr, so sorry to vent! I just know you guys will listen, LOL. Nicole- awesome seeing a 1 on the scale! Even if it doesn't totally stick this time it will in a couple weeks! I'm glad you had a good cry and are feeling better. Thanks for the advice on the elliptical- I have been doing the varied "weight loss" program that's in it. It does change the resistance and it is HARD, LOL! Chrissy- you're an awesome shopper, and yay on the sizes, I would totally bet you'll see size 12, no problem! Meredith- I am the same way with sitting around and being lazier than I want- though I have noticed for me the more weight I lose the less lazy I am, I guess I have a little more energy than before. Horsegirl, Otaknam, NJ2NC, Mags (haven't seen you in forever)- Lady Bandido, etc- post! What's going on with all of you?!? Nicki

Hi all- kind of slow, so thought I'd post. I've been exercising at lunch on the ellipticals at the Y, so feeling good about it. It's nice to not have to go home and take time from the kids to exercise. I'm not doing as much strength training though, need to add that in, maybe some at night. My hips hurt, though, from all that ellipticalling! I'm hoping that translates into smaller hips. I had a bad stuck episode last night on some dry chicken. I do have an appointment on Tuesday, maybe a small adjustment, I still feel like I'm not really satisfied on a small amount of food, even though I don't keep eating. I am religiously using myfitnesspal and working out, and still losing weight, though not as fast. I didn't quite make my goal of 207 this month, but I'm setting my September goal to be 199.5 lbs!! I want to be under 200, so that's my goal! Anyone else have September goals??? Nicki ps- post post post all you lurkers, LOL! I want to hear from YOU!!

Name, real or screen~ Justdoit130- Nicki Goal weight for September 29th~ 199.5 Weight on September 1st~ 207.5 Age~ 42 Dietary goal for September~ Nothing really Exercise goal for September~ Work out for at least 30 min each day Personal goal for September~ Learn to like my new job Date banded~ 1/26/12 Total weight loss since banding/pre op diet~ 76.5 lbs What is your favorite Fall Activity?~ Just watching the leaves change colors I fell off the earth a little last month, still losing just not recording it!! Nicki

Hi everyone! Finally got computer access at my job. Meredith- congratulations! You're a practice manager? That's a busy demanding job!!! I had a pb at a restaurant last Friday- my old job was taking me out to lunch and I excused myself to go to the bathroom and luckily I took my napkin with me as I pb'd in it- gross! But better than not having the napkin, LOL. I think that pbing will be a potential part of our life no matter what, to a small extent. I have another appt next week- maybe I'll ask for a little fill, i feel like i need it a little. Chrissy- good for being busy! I think I"ll be able to post first thing in the morning, not sure about throughout the day, but I can always check in on my phone, though I hate typing on that touch screen- dang thumbs! I lost 1 lb this week, missed my goal by .5 lbs (I wanted to get to 77 lbs lost, that's halfway). I'm at 76.5 lbs lost, so not at all unhappy really!! I have been getting to the Y while at work, so that's good, trying to get a routine down so I'm not away from the office too too long, but want to get a 45 min workout in. Today I'm going to try changing into my workout clothes at the office instead of at the Y- just put my shoes on there, I hate wearing my workout shoes outside. So that should shave a few mintues off. Everyone have a great day!! Nicki

Hi everyone! Nicole, I am so glad u posted. We do understand. You will find a healthy way to cope! I'm glad u have an appointment tomorrow. Food is fuel, not a friend. Please keep posting! We don't expect perfection, just trying!! Meredith, glad your spa weekend was fun! I'm doing this on my phone as I started my new job yesterday and don't have a computer or my own desk yet. The good thing is my new manager asked what I needed as far as work environment was concerned, and I told her I have lost a lot of weight and needed to take my lunch hour to work out and if I was a little longer than an hour I didn't want to worry, I wouldn't take any other breaks. She seems fine with it, we'll see, I'm going to the y today. It's only a 5 minute drive from the office. They have some high expectations of me, and I intend to get some of what I need too. More later when I can take better notes!! Nicki

Welcome Melissa!! I'm on my phone and my dang thumbs make it hard to type much, lol. More on Monday but glad you're here with us!!

LOL, all my posts are long!! Meredith- My dad grew up going to the Jersey Shore, he is from Ridgewood. Still have family there- in Vernon, I think. Good luck on the second interview!! Chrissy! Congrats! Or is it congrats? LOL. Sounds like a cool job! And congrats on the doctor's visit. I still haven't done the blood draw to check my labs. I HATE getting my blood drawn. But I want to see if the numbers are better, so I guess I'd better get it done. My next appointment is beginning of September, so if I get the labs done they can give me the results then. The GOOD results, LOL. I broke my kinda plateau- last week I'd only lost .5 lbs, this week I'm down 2.5 to 208.5. My goal is 207 by the end of the month, I may make that. That would put me to half way to my goal. I have not seen this number in over 7 years. Oh my heck, I'm so happy! Been good with the exercise- since I'm lame duck here in my job I've been going to the Y during my lunch break and doing the elliptical, and I did a zumba class too. I'm not going today as my hips are killing me from the elliptical- I will do something tonight. still stressing about the job thing, but it's better than no job and I will deal!!! Definitely have my resume out there now, though. Nicki ps see, I told you all my posts were long!

Hi everyone! Nice to see lots of posts . NJ2NC- I love fried fish too. Glad DH stuck up for you and mil was good! That's the thing about the band- you can eat what you want but you always have the ability to get back to basics! I hear you about the stuck- I have only been once with a friend who knows I'm banded- I headed to the bathroom but getting up and moving around helped and it passed. Chrissy- good luck on the check up- and don't feel ashamed! That doesn't help- like you said, back on the bandwagon. You can always go back! Savannah! 202!! Girl, that is awesome! You'll be in Onederland in no time! You'll be my inspiration!! Ladybandido- I do that to myself- I haven't been below 185 or so in a zillion years, so that is going to be my weight I stress over....you're doing awesome! Horsegirl- I read it all, LOL! I don't drink, so I don't have to worry about that- but my nemesis is ice cream- so I decided I can have it on Sunday. No other days, but Sunday I can. And I have been, for sure . I like lady bandido's idea about the drink/water/drink... And I definitely did the buy clothes without trying them on thing. Not now, though, some stuff I thought would fit is too big! LOL, nice problem to have. Well, still stressing about things. Sigh. But I'm dealing. LOL Nicki

Thanks for all the well wishes. I have a funny story. I was talking to a former co-worker who just had lunch with a guy I still work with. He said to her, during the lunch, that I was looking really good!! LOL. All the women I work with have made comments, but none of the men, but it's nice to know they notice!! LOL I am so concerned that I wont' be Able to keep up with my exercise with this new job. But I'm not going to stress, I"m just going to make it a priority and get it done however. I just tried out a zumba class during work- luckily when I switch offices there's a y really close, much closer than the one I went to today. I'm kind of lame duck right now so don't mind going longer for lunch . Meredith- good vibes on the job interview! I know how nerve wracking they are. Let us know how it turns out. Chrissy- that's a great NSV! You'll kick that plateau, the marathon not a sprint concept, LOL. NJ2NC- just tell them you're watching what you eat. They don't have to know about the lapband, just know you're not going to be "consuming mass quantities" (isn't that from the coneheads?? LOL) Kymie- good for you for kicking those lbs to the curb! Good for all of us, hanging in there and making it work. I feel so much better not being heavier than I was at the beginning of the year!!! Nicki

You have to re-learn how your band is after every fill. I had no stuck episodes until 2 fills ago. I had a few episodes with the fill that was 2 fills ago, and now with this last fill I have had more, and really have to watch it now. I really have to chew, can't have dry stuff, and have to have teeny bites of protein. It's not fun, but it will probably happen to you. It's more like a gag and throw up than the gut wrenching throw up you sometimes get with a stomach bug. It's a learning curve!!!! Nicki

Hi everyone! I got the job, not sure of start date, sometime in the next week or so. All good. It's a transfer really to a sister division. A longer commute and not as much money, but it's better than no job. NJ2NC- HI!!! Congratulations on Onederland!!! That is awesome, I agree with Meredith- take a picture!!! I know I will. Meredith- awesome on size 14!!!! How did your interview go? It's amazing how much more confident I was being "smaller." Kymie- yeppers on the willpower! But, at least to me, it's a little easier than without the band, especially when I see results. Chrissy- exercise seems to be really important to my weight loss to, dang it! Well, I got the job but there's some drawbacks- but there's a YMCA about 7 minutes away from the office and so I will have to work out on my lunch- I will have to be to work earlier than now and it's about a 40-45 minute commute, so no working out in the morning, and there goes the time I have been able to spend with the kids in the morning, so I don't want to come home and take time away from them by having to still work out. Sigh- it's not perfect but beats not having a job! Nicki

Oh, and Kymie- one thing that helps me- I allow myself a cheat day on Sunday night, I eat 1 (and truthfully sometimes 2) HUGE bowls of ice cream. I don't have any at all any other day, and I do look forward to that cheat- just knowing I have it scheduled makes it easier to not overdo it during the week!

Hi everyone! I too have a job interview today, so wish me luck too! I have to say, I feel much more confident at 211 lbs than I did at 284 lbs! Meredith- GOOD LUCK!! You'll do awesome, and congrats on the size 16 practically 14!!! Yay!!! And that NSV, that's a biggie, I HATED flying when I was larger, so embarrassing. Savannah- Oneder(ful)land, LOL, 7 lbs, that's just a few weeks away! Good for you! Getting to the green zone in your head is a great accomplishment, as I have seen written, we have a band around our stomach, not our head, and that's a hard thing to tame, so good for you! Chrissy-me too on the sliders- popcorn and of course, ice cream. I am having to really eat more slowly and chew chew chew- things I'm so not used to doing. I know when I got this surgery I vowed to not eat sliders, that I would chew my protein and eat healthily, not crap- so I just have to keep that in my head. I also decided I would absolutely not lie to myself and I would log everything I ate, even the crap sliders. As far as the BM thing- I'll bet it's just your body finally adjusting. I think being regular is a good thing. Have you upped your liquid intake at all? that could help in that department. I think it's a good thing. Kymie- I hear you! I too get too hungry and then take to big a bite my first bite and don't chew enough then get stuck then eat something crappy later. I just have started stopping myself before that first bite and reminding myself to eat small bites (it helps to cut things up into small bites before I start eating- it gives me time to remind myself, then they're all ready and cut up small!). I'm also trying to insert a snack- usually greek yogurt- in the afternoon so I'm not starving at dinner. I also (as I said to Chrissy) log everything- EVERYTHING! As to exercise, it's important- but with a pulled calf muscle take it easy. Maybe walking, if it doesn't hurt, or stretching or just upper body, but try to get back in the habit- I totally know what you mean by it's a cycle. Greek yogurt is good for a tight band, for sure, and it's got a lot of protein. Also cheese- I love sharp cheese, or I heard those laughing cow cheeses are good. Good luck, hang in there, and you're NOT failing the band! It's a process, and heck woman, you've lost 75 lbs in a little over 6 months!!! Not a failure!! Just keep on plugging along, there will be ups and downs. Had a good sweaty zumba class last night, then a kind of restless night stressing about this interview. And being at work, knowing I'm being laid off, sux. But I WILL get this job, I am a great fit and I will do a great job in the interview!! LOL Nicki