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Good for you!!! This makes me exited to learn more about the band!

Hello everyone! I am here to get a grasp on changing my weight to better my life. I have been overweight my entire life. Growing up as a chubby kid is a very tough thing. I pretty much got made fun of by what seems like every kid @ some point. I am a mother of a one year old & it breaks my heart to think of anyone picking on him. He is the sweetest little fellow & absolutely beautiful. The positives from having grown up this way is that I am a very empathetic caring person & I find beauty in everyone. I have had some success in the past losing weight. I was in my early 20s & wieghed 215lbs, I decided to get rid of it. I would loose 10lbs then stop. Finally after many attempts, I was on a roll. I lost around 50-60 lbs. My weight would fluctuate between 160 & 170. I was steadily around 165 for a few years. But of course, not w/out working out 5 days a weeks & eating only 1,000 calories a day. I would sometimes go over my very low calorie, self-made diet. I began to take laxatives when it got so hard, to maintain such a low cal diet. It didn't matter to me that I'd drink 2 diet red bulls & work my a$ of @ the gym. I got some long blonde hair extentions, nails done weekly & make up perfect everyday. I was looking good & guys were noticing. Suddenly girls were noticing that I attracted guys like a magnet. Some girls hated me some wanted to be my best friend. To this day I don't know why. I was still 165. In my eyes I was still far from where I wanted to be. That was the lowest my weight has ever been. I one day decided to pull out the fake hair & "be myself". I gained a few & was 170 when I met my husband. I told him how it was, who I was & what it would be. He loved it! We had a great time we went on a Cruise, Disney World, Canada & many places along the way. All the while eating my face off not giving a care. Well lets just say "gaining HAPPY FAT" Soooo here I was Nov 2009 just back from vacation weighing 190lbs!!!! What the hell? How the hell? & here he was still in love w/ me, didn't even notice all that happy fat. I was in shock & pretty disappointed in myself. That same Nov. I was feeling really sick & went to the e.r. Guess what I was pregnant! My 1st thought was I'm gonna be sooo fat. =( But my next was a very nervous BLESSED thought. Looking @ my husband's reaction, he was feeling the same..minus the fat thought. So I knew, well, I'm just gonna have to loose it again! I only gained 20lbs during my pregnancy, ate extremely healthy. Whole Grain, fruits, veggies tons of lean protein the whole 9 yards. After I had my son I would devourer cookies & twizzlers & things I never would have eaten pregnant or on my 1,000 calorie diet. So...here I am, the biggest I have ever been & ready to make a BIGGGGGGG Change. It feels like I get less respect from peers @ work, "friends" & family members. I feel like everyone expected me to just loose the weight so fast. Since i have made NO progress in a year people have been making snid comments. It's very uncomfortable b/c they are indirect. As much as the comments upset me. The #1 reasons I wanna try the Lap Band is for my son & my health. I want to play baseball w/ my son & run the bases!! He may only be 1 but he's fast like his Daddy, so I got a lot of work to do! I have a million & 1 questions about the band so I'll just continue reading all your posts until I get them in order to ask. Wish me luck & anything you have to say, please do!!!! Thanx all <3 Rox