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Ok so i havent written in a bit..and im writing now b/c i just came off of a binge..a bored binge..a comfort binge..a stress binge..one which after i was done all i wanted to do is cry and thats what i did..i wish that voice in my head woulda been loud enough to wake myself up b4 i did it..i do good for a while and then BOOM ! the devil takes over and im back to old habits..my NUT wants me to try to get down to 280..as of the last visit i was 301.5..i usually weigh every day and she advised me not to but i told her it keeps me on track but now im not so sure..so i put it away and will not weigh until i step on the scale at the drs on Aug. 21. I have to get stronger..i know the sleeve isnt a cure all and that i have to work my sleeve but it will be so great not to be able to overeat..i know most of it is in my head (aka head hunger)..I'm just so frustrated and stress in my life doesnt help one bit.. rant over ..till next time

I live in GA but am having surgery in Tallahassee with Dr. Sieloff..right now im in the 4 month of 6 months monitored weight loss required by my insurance..will be submitting things in oct and i cant wait!

I'm going into my 4th month of 6mon required by my insurance (BCBS Anthem GA) and i was like you when it started..i never thought id get thru it..i go for my dr appt on the 21st so thats the 4th then i have sept and oct and then we submit everything and wait..good luck on your journey!

thanks for the info b/c im still pre op and trying different ones and OMG i tried the ones from GNC called Lean Shake 25..i got 3 packets: Rich Chocolate, Cookies and Cream and french vanilla..and the only one i could stomach was the chocolate one.. i Tried the vanilla one today and i couldnt even get it all the way down..it was GROSS! so i'm crossing Those off of my list..i have a vitamin shoppe here so i'm going to try those

I'm still pre-op jumping thru my insurance hoops ( 3 months in..half way there!!) and so far my out of pocket has been my co-pays which as of now is $390..when the 6 months are over it will be $540..but i went on line and checked what the bloodwork costs and O M G the one set of tests was $888! i was like Thank God my insurance pays that b/c that is INSANE!!!

woo hoo you go girl..thanks for sharing your story..i am still pre op and sometimes i question if i deserve it..and then i read posts like this an say hell yea i am! thanks for the encouragement!

I decided that today was the day for me to start blogging on here b/c quite frankly I am so pissed at myself right now..i have been doing so good these past few weeks and i was starting to see a change in the scale and i was ecstatic about it. then the stress rolled in and pppffffhhhttt that was it..my 1 meal on Friday was over 1600 calories! For one damn meal!! I know this b/c i went on their website and looked it up..can you say shocked! Mortified! embarrassed! If my legs were long enough I'd kick my own ass! so then today my thinking was ah well since i have f'd up already why not a little more so a drive thru it was! UGHHHH!! Dammit! I do admit i am a food addict. and it isnt an easy addiction as you cant totally give up food like u can say drugs or alcohol..so what to do? i have had my woe is me time and now starting today (well when i get up later since its after 1am here on the East coast) I know that i messed up and now it is time to get serious yet again. I meet with my NUT Katie on the 23rd of July and i plan on being a lil bit lighter than i am now..its so hard but i know eventually this will get better and food wont be an issue or my go to thing when ever something doesnt go my way or stress beats on my door or the Devil wants to bring old habits back..i will not give in..ive come too far in this journey to stop now. i deserve to be happy. I am doing this for me and no one else but me. i am accountable for my own actions. and i take full responsibility for what happened this weekend and now we start anew. From here on out. Any time that i feel like the old way creeping in i will be writing down my feelings here. So Here WE GO!!! I

wow Chad thanks so much for posting the link to that. it was very informative and interesting to watch.

i know i've read the good the bad the ugly right here on this forum and thats why i love it b/c you dont just get *the surgery is awesome i've had nothing happen* you get it from all aspects of the journey and BTW a lil off topic but Nate i love your icon haha

woo hoo way to go!

so today i met with my Bariatric doctor and we went over my food journal..yea not the best but its a work in progress..learn from your mistakes right? so anyway..let me back up and explain somethings..i had started this journey in october with the seminar then November with the consult..then i lost my car and wasnt able to get to appt's so skip to April, got the bloodwork they needed taken and had another appt in May and now the one today..along with another consult with the Psychiatrist (since it had been since November since i saw her)..so my insurance requires a 6 mon study .(I have Anthem blue cross/blue shield of GA) .i was hoping to bypass that since i tech hadnt been there every month for 6 but a combined amount..well when i called the surgeon's office and spoke to the lady that handles the insurance..it has to be consecutive so now my 6 month journey will end in October..then we submit to insurance and hopefully get approved and be on my way to the losers bench.. so this is just a kink in my journey..i refuse to give up..

for me i was wanting the LapBand but after talking with the doctor it wasn't the right fit for me..(BMI being over 50..he said that losing 100lbs with the band, i would still be obese/overweight so he didnt reccommend that) so that left me with the sleeve and the bypass and i didnt want anything bypassed so thats how i came to want the sleeve..

Hope you feel better soon and YAY for the 32lbs!

thats a thought of mine too..i have yet to be sleeved but im wondering how others are going to act once i cross onto the losers bench..as of right now on my facebook i dont have a picture of my as my profile pic..what i do have is a sign that says *under construction check back soon* haha..my motto is *if you weren't there at my worst you don't deserve me at my best*

congrats! i'm almost ready to submit everything to my insurance company and i hope i can come in here and say that very same thing!

congrats! Can't wait to be able to say I'm there!

Im in the last stages before i head to surgery but i have a question..can you sleep in your bed after getting home or did you sleep in a recliner.. i ask this as i dont have one and was wondering if i needed to see if i could get one thanks for your input

thanks Benjammin for the input!

i went to 2 different seminars..first one was for the lap band and the 2nd was a combination of all 3 options..during the course of the 2nd seminar i realized that the lap band wasnt for me due to my BMI being so high so that left me with the bypass and the sleeve..well i knew i didnt want anything bypassed so i made the decision to go with the sleeve..im in the process of doing what the insurance wants me too and hopefully i will be sleeved by the end of the summer..i too have been overweight my entire life..yea im nervous b/c ive never had major surgery before but i know what the outcome is going to be..me feeling so much better and being able to do things im not able to right now due to the weight i carry..

good luck! I can't wait til i get to post that!

as much as i hate to but yes anything that went into my mouth went down on paper...and thanks!

im having to jump through the hoops with my insurance company too..i'm just about done with the 6 month plan..i had to see a dietian to make sure i was eating right and portion control and all that and get prepared for the pre op diet and post op diet..believe me i didnt think the 6 mons would ever finish but like i said im just about there and then all the paperwork to the insurance comp to wait for approval..that im nervous about..good luck with your journey!

I love Boars Head products and yes that jerk turkey is spicy but yummy

you go girl!!!

I have yet to be sleeved but im on my way there and have come up with a list of things that i want to do once the weight starts coming off.. feel free to add your own! 1. every ride at an amusement park 2. cross my legs 3. look down and see feet instead of belly 4. horseback riding 5. shop in the regular section in the store 6. ride in a plane without the belt expander thats my list for right now im sure i will think of more haha