Hi i am about a month away fron getting sleeved and this is my second time trying to get the surgery but then i get scared and back up from it i love to google and recently read so many bad things about the sleeve this lady even has a picture of what your stomach looks like and it looks so drastic and horrible i feel like not getting the surgery again but this time for good im tired of thinking every single second of my existence about whether i should or should'nt do the surgery ! Its become an obsession , and because of this my depression has gotten worst i feel like a coward and a failure because i know i have to loose weitght one way or another and cant do something about it. Sometimes i have even thought that the best thing would b just to die that way i wouldnt have to decide or loose weight or suffer anymore ! I am 39 years old have suffered being overweight all my life i currently weigh 241 lbs at 5'2 and have most of the comorbidities of being over weight : hb pressure sleep apnea etc etc... I tried to loose the weight on my own and i do accomplish to loose but then i fall off thw wagon and regain so its yoyoing for me all my life and im exhausted but im shitting on my self of fright of the drastic meassures you have to take to feel some what normal in this cruel world. Congratulations to all who have had the surgery and my prayers go out to you so all is well and you continue to b successfull ! My children are very supportive of the surgery but my husband has begged me not to get it because he knows someone that died after the surgery due to complications, but i need something to give one way or another as i am very un happy with my self and very unhealthy! I always ask god for guidance and to help me do whats right ! Love this forum i spend most of my free time here godbless