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This might sound vain so I am sorry if it bugs any one. So i now work in the fitness field a field of young 20's something so older but I have to compete with them every day for my job. But it hard to feel sexy when thing jiggle. Let me give you an example the under arm skin will never tight up no matter how much under arm work i do. I teach a toning class and I always say this is for your under arms so you don't get the jiggles. After one class a women cam up to me and said you need to practice what you teach your under arms are the most jiggley of all. I said Yes but that is why you do this now so you do not need to lose over 175 lbs and have extra skin i said once the skin is there it not going any wear. My bra can't fit i trued ton of different styles but my skin folds are tight were a bra cuts and i puff out over it. I feel so unsexy wearing a bar 99% i wear sports bra becuse they seem to be high cut. It hard to feel sexy when you lose an jiggly i know it like a badge of honor but gosh i want to feel sexy. I don't I feel like i have to hide parts because i am not sexy things i wish i did not have to. I been thinking about this for a long time it always been because i work in this field that why i want plastic surgery and then I said that not the right reason. So i find my self saying if i did not work in the fitness field would i feel sexy. The answer is no. I would not I feel sick that i can't find a Bra in any store. I feel sick when i want to put on something sexy for me and my lower abs sticks out and jingles. I feel unsexy when my arms jiggle around when i raise them up. Heck I worked this hard I have the right to feel sexy if i want to. In america we call sexy sluty but i not talking about being sexy for anyone beside me. So i thought alot about it I think it time to call in the experts and fix it up . Frist thing get boobies that fit a bra that come out in the arm are with extra skin I dream of round preky bobbies that stand up mine look defined and saggy. In life when you work this hard you have the right to feel sexy. If doing your hair makes you feel sexy then do it If getting plastic suregry is it then go for it as long as you do it for you and not for other I do not think it should be a problem

I taken up Obstetrical mud raceing. I Have now Done "Deity Girl " Boston found it pretty easy as my frist test goes of obstetrical training wearing a Bright Green Zumba outfit and Tutu a buch of us set out to get muddy and have fun. we also did about an hour of Zumba before we ran just to pump up the crowd. The next Race I will do is a bit Harder it called Spartan it is also a five k it set up alot like tough mudder but with out the shocks and ice I think that going to be the hardest part for me Then I go to Zumba convention for an amazing time and lots and lots of danceing . September 21 is the last one tn CT it called the Warrior Dash. Then October 10 is the big Day the day I do it for good. So far I made alot of progress.

I see life as a Changes a bunch of wall you must climb over to get to your goal. I had the goal to lose weight and when i Failed and Failed again I turned to my band and I love it. I had a dream of Being a Zumba Instructor I took the course and now have class that are packed. I am opening my Own studio in September . I wanted to be a personal Trainer I have a list of people who want to work with me. So when I was told about Tough Mudder I knew I have to train for it. This is a 10-12 mile run with an obstical course build in. I am in the process of training for this. Training includes 5 mile runs 3 times a week 8 mile runs 3 times a week once a week i only have to run 2-3 miles. Boot Camp 3 times a week. A madders boot camp is 5 min warm up 2 min of cardo 1 opticcal 2 min Cardo again 1. Obstical one min rest times 5 2 personal training session a week with 1 being high intencedy cardio the other work out the other streath training . I will be doing this in October

I do alot of work with weight loss surgery pepole. I teach a zumba class just for pre and post opt. But one of the things that make me the saddest to hear is that they stopped liveing. They will not go somewhere with food is invoked. This just make me so sad. So how do i handle this. I like to point out some different ways. 1, What is the point of the get together So when i want to hang out with freinds i used to say hay lets go for ice cream or hay lets go for lunch. Now i might say want to join me for a walk. Or it a nice day lets go for a swim . Sometime we forget what the point of the event is and we get so caught up in what were going to eat that we forget what the point is. So back yard barbeque. what is the point to have fun with friends. That the frist thing i do is make sure i know the point before i even start out . I alway offfer to bring something. Most of the time it something tha i know i can have and will be good for me. Also drink right before you go. this give you 30 mins to play with. In this 30 min you walk around and make your game plan. If there is one thing that i relly relly must have that i know i will be okay with . I will pick that thing and have a small amount. Also the size of your plate. I always try and take small plates . Just because you have your band dose not mean you need to stop living. I call April 23 2012 the day i started living. But if i look back on it I did not start living untill i relly let go of all the food fears and started making it my life style and not just some crazy deit plan. We all know deit do not work. Deit all about not letting your self have something this needs to be a life style

I am in the green now. I know it because i telly do not get gummy hungery. I do get physical hunger when i do not feell well and my body is telling me look you used your fuel now you need to fuel me so we can keep going. This happens alot in the gym i try and make sure i have something every 3 hours if it even just a protine shake with water. I always keep 2 or 3 packs of necter protein in my puurs then all i need is my blender cup i always keep one in my puruse and water and i am good to go. but just because i do not get growl hunger dose not mean i do not have head hunger. So how do i deal with it and how do i tell the diference. Well am i hungery enough to eat a plate of steamed veggies. For me thats not something to i would never eat but it not something that would be a first choice . If the answer is yes then it okay for me to eat again If now I then go though my cheek list Laura mental cheek list for head hunger 1. cheek make sure it head hunger 2. Once we made sure it head huger ask why do i want to eat what is the trigger. - am i sad -- how can i make my self happy with out food - am i bord - what can i do to make my self less bord `` am i upset - how else can i blow off steam that dose not enovlove 3. It a relly bad bad craving i must have it I use the tick on a scale of 1 to 10 were is it. If it under a seven i go back to my cheek list and try to find the trigger and the non food answer. Some time i have to do this 3 or 4 times till i get my aswer this is enough time to drink water so i have 30 min to figger it out The craving is over 7 well then I say okay You know what it okay it not an every day Evey moment thing. what do i rely want. I take my faviort sin cup cake. Do i relly want a whole cup cake or do i just want part ie frosting or cake. Can i get the same thing for smaller amounts If i eat a minnie cupcake vris a large cupcake. I want a sunday okay that fine how can i get my Sunday for less can i use suger free ice cream 1//2 fuirt fat free cool wip 2 table spon of sugar free syrup. I still have my Sunday i still have my tast I also write down the question and aswer make sure to goo back and look at them when your not craving so you can at the moment help your self know what to do. It took me a long time to get these tool so i thought i share

Don't you just love the douter?? the one who say "it a cheet you would have lost anyways" Gosh pepole to the researcher it not a cheat it hard work. Okay so i was selected form 1000 to the 25 to the Zumba informal I mean after all no one love Zumba more then me. So here i was being interviewed and she tell me to turn of the carama. And said Do you really think it was zumba and not the band that changed you. You would have loosed just sitting on the couch after all you have a band. I wish it were that easy, So here my reprocess se " do you research 80 % of all people who have weight loss surgery gain it back. I can eat around my band if i want to my it might recerct me in some ways but in other it gives me a lot of freedom. The band is a tool you get out of it what you put into it. I put every thing i have into it and right when i done i think i have nothing more to give I give it a little more. I did not and will throw in the towel I just use it to wipe up the sweet and keep going. Right when i think I can't give any more to this I always find just a little bit more some were. This is Hard work Hard Hard work .I need to be strong not only physically but mental too. To do what have done changed my life from sitting on a couch to teaching Zumba, Spin, body pump, cross fit The gym i work at I have a waiting list of people who want me to be there trainer so i can do what i did to my self to them. Some day I wish I did not have to work so hard and could sitt on a in an office some were an a coshie chair must be nice huh ? So the answer is it a not a cheat it is detraction demonstration and given it all i got and Just a little more . So i found my self a good zumba class and let it getaway from me becuse something about the music alway makes me feel better

Rellly I always get super tight i can go from wide open to only getting by on lquid for a day or two right around it. they never cut out the craving part

If you had asked me Last year i be wearing this size i say no If you asked me if I own a two pice last year this time I say no. If you asked me if i had my navle pice i say no. Well here it is Yes i am a size 4/6 Yes; I do own a two piece Yes I did puce my navel because i could

lbs yes that make me Tiny !!! and for Zumba they have it for every one aqua in the water and gold for older active adults low impact. I teach pepole to love to dance form age 3 to 103

Yup I cheeked it on 4 different scales okay who wants to Zumba with me now

even though i lost all the wait i still struggle with self image issues. In my mind i see my self as as Big even though my paints size is a 4/6 in my mind i wear an 18. I hold up cloths in the store and look at them and say no way and go back to the pluse sizes it a long i mean hour and hours long process for me to get cloths. The weather is warming up hear in Ma and i have no shorts So i had to get some i just could not belve i was this size i could even shop in the juiors and did get a juniors dress but it just so hard. I think alot of pepole do not understand how it a daily stugle for alot of us I look at my refection and I start hating my self i can tell you everything wrong about me . I spend 90 % of my time thinking about food and feeling bad and that i need to extersize it off. but most pepole have no idea.That this is a strugle for me they think that the band sloved everything boom it all fixed in the real life no it not fixed. they have no idea how hard i work how meny hours i spend working at this.

One year ago right about now i was taken back to the or. That thing i renumber before going to sleep to get my band was the nurse saying what they were going to do and it being so cold in the OR. I woke up and the frist thought was OMG what did i just do to my self. Please make this woth it. One year latter I can answer that question with a big YES it was worth it. I lost all of my excess weight. I do things i only dreamed of doing last year at this time. So for me yes it was worth it. The band is only a tool and it only as good as you work it but sometimes it my control. I could not be happier with my new life. Thanks to all those who supported me in this last year. Thanks to Dr Jones for giving me a my band ( zoey) . I can not wait to see what the next year brings . Happy bandvery zoey !!!! we been though a lot in the last year

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