eviej

THE DEPTH OF MY JOURNEY
I am a 51 yr old ex-marine that had always bee smal and when i was discharged and became lazy. I began to gain weight and could not take it off.i began dieting but no exercising,wasn't taking it seriously(not at all). So i stopped and just said forget i am healthy and young it will leave (not true).so at 48 yrs of age I had a major illness and ended up in the hospital in ICU. Found out that I had 5 major problems and no matter how hard ithen tried i could not lose the weight. I then became desparate my pcp gave me pills reluctantly, but it helped and I  had no wilpower or determination but I began to lose a little but I wanted a fast fix.So to no avail I quit trying again. Then MY MOM GOTSICK and had to come and stay with me and my husband.i thten realized that someone depended on me and if I  didn't lose the weight I she would have noone because we have no family.Well that didn't work beacuse I started stress eating,emotional eating,mad eatind still smoking I HADN'T LEARN .SO as my husband said everyone has a bottom and my bottom was when I had to get the motherized cart to do regular grocery shopping.THAT WAS IT FOR ME SO WITHOUT ANY SURGERY I BEGAN TO EATING BETTER AND I BEGAN TO LOSE SLOWLY.BUT THEN I BEGAN TO FEEL BETTER AND I HAD TO FIGHT WITH 1 JOB AND LOST THAT BATTLE.GOD BLESSED ME WITH A GOOD JOB THAT IS NOW HELPING ME SO I AM EXCITED BUT I NEED TO STOP SMOKING BECAUSE I HAVE COPD,SLEEP APNEA CO2 ISSUES DIABETES AND HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE. I WANT TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT. NO I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT SO I CAN LIVE.MY LIFE STARTS 7/18/2011 FOR REAL.