I feel where you are coming from on some level. When my (now) husband and I first started dating he told me he thought my weight might be an issue for him. He had always dated pencil thin women and I had never been that. Well, I had reached a point with myself that I had accepted my body for what it was and I was quick to let him know that my weight did not define me as a person, a woman and that weight was just a number like age. We fell in love and married this past April - and I was bigger then than when we started dating. He fell in love with ME. I now want to lose the weight because of the pain I experience in my feet, ankles, knees & hips. It has nothing to do with wanting to please him (although it is nice) but he has let me know time and time again that he loves me regardless and that means the world to me. I'm doing this for ME now. I want to feel good and enjoy doing things again.
You did a courageous thing going through the surgery. In the end you will see that you did it for YOU. You will feel better about yourself, your overall health will improve. We are all gonna have our "down" days and probably question why we did this. But as the time passes you are gonna be ever so glad you did. I wish you much sucess in your journey.
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