blondielou

Considering surgery.  I've been heavy all my life & I think I'm ready for a change.  I want to get my life on track and want to finally feel better about myself.  My husband left me last year for another woman and even though she isn't a beauty queen my already non-existant self confidence is gone and it has sent me into a lot of depression.  I feel like the person I am on the inside is not getting her chance to live a life.  I'm sick of loving fashion and not being able to wear it, being limited to only a few stores. I'm sick of avoiding cameras, I'm sick of not being social and I'm sick of not having friends.  I want to LIVE!!! I want to do things, I want to feel normal and not the damn "fat girl" anymore