You know I don't even have my date yet, I haven't actually even seen my surgeon yet ( Appointment is on the 15th) And I already have those what if's. But you know what other what if's I have?
What if I don't get this surgery, and I die of heart disease
What if I don't get the surgery, and by the time I actually die I'm so heavy, I can't have a regular funeral?
What is I don't get the surgery, and for the rest of my life I hate myself for backing out of the once chance I had to REALLY help myself.
What if my kids grow up unhealthy because they see how unhealthy Mom is?
Your what if's are so valid! I know it's scary! This is a major surgery, even if it's just " Laproscopic" It's a real major surgery. Your Fears are valid. I understand them.
But what is also real is that either way you go, whether you get the surgery or not, you are risking something. I think you should risk the surgery, and come out healthier on the other side. There are all sorts of medications for nausea! And as long as you follow the diet your Doctor gives you, you WILL lose the weight. It's a matter of following simple instructions now, and you can do it!
Be courageous Bryn, take this bull by the horns and CONQUER it! You are going to be in the Loser's club soon! Soon after that you will be in ONEDERLAND!!! you can do it! I'm so proud of you!
If you'd like me to be your personal cheer leader, just PM me, I will be that for you, because above all else, I beleive that this is the right decision for people like us, who have tried so many things and just need help!
*Hugs and comfort!*
~Sarah~