jasleeve

i woke up throwing up green bile on an empty stomach. lord knows im soooo over this. what i would give to undo all of this.... u guys have no idea!!! i dont want to discourage people from having surgery because not all ppl have complications but then again... i went ahead with surgery because i thought id be lucky & not have complications! ive heard patients call my surgeon a GOD! although i know this wasnt his fault because i had no leak when i left the hospital post surgery but damn!!! had i known that i would be doing this 6 weeks post op, i wouldve did it the old fashion way & went back to a gym & cut my portions! ppl keep asking me how much ive lost & they say well thats great! atleast u lost x amount. NO!!! screw that. i rather have put that much weight on & not be going through this rather than be going through this & lost that weight! this is torture!!! im venting here & sorry if im scaring anyone but this is MY STORY & MY TRUTH!!!!

no.. i am able to eat whatever i want as long as i chew it well but with the acid.. i dont want to eat anything.

well if i was regretting surgery before... IM DEFINITELY regretting it now! they found a leak last week. i was discharged after 6 days. they placed a stent which is painful. the acid is the worse!!!!! i dont know wdf to do!!!! seriously. my throat feels like its pouring alcohol on an open cut. im on 20mg of omeprazole 2x a day. i dont know how much more of this i can take!

i mean, i was doing good in the hospital so i see why they wouldve sent me home. then again, i was getting round the clock care. they were giving me meds non stop which wouldve had me up & moving. now that im home, of course its less meds & now im feeling the effects of it all.

today was my first day home & i really wish i wouldve stayed in the hospital. i just finished throwing up and its so disgusting & burns so bad!!!! im actually mad that i pushed to go home so bad! i shouldve stayed. this morning i found out my prescription portion of my insurance was not active so i couldnt get my meds until just a few mins ago. when i say nightmare, im talking about nightmare!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the acid is like triple & burns so bad that it feels like someone is pouring alcohol on an open cut. i dont wish this on my worst enemy. i just really wish i could go back to normal. this is just crazy!!!! :'(

lol smh= shaking my head

i am home!!!! thank god! i had my own quiet beautiful room from wednesday until today! they brought in an annoying RUDE roommate & i said oh hell no... send me home! lol. well they were going to send me home anyway but i pushed it after i met my new roommate. lol. so yeah, im feeling gassy & pain! the stent is painful & i thought it was a pain free procedure. silly me, right? smh. they r going to remove the stent in 6weeks.

thank u!!

i am still in the hospital. stent is in... & is PAINFUL!!!!!! to me, more painful than the sleeve surgery itself. im soooooooooo over this! i want to go home!!!! i may be starting mushies tomorrow, god willing... pray for me!!!!

thank you everyone!

***********UPDATE************ last night was horrible! my roommate is a bigger woman & she snores like a bear! i was growing agitated with every breath she took! finally i couldnt take it & i called a nurse & begged for another room.. they said they had none. i then requested some benadryl! she gave me the benadryl. i told her there was nooooo way i could sleep with her snoring that way. not only that... she is so loud & 24/7 on the phone! her phone was ringing at 1am & it was so frustrating.. i cant deal. shes making this experience so much worse.

thanks for all the prayers!!!! i love you guys. so heres an update & all my details. i was feeling GREAT these last few weeks. i was able to eat, wasnt feeling weak or nothing! i was able to eat & everything. there was 2x in the past 2weeks where i threw up yellow bile. i contacted my nurse practioner after the first time & she said if it happens again.. let her know! well.. i did. she requested i have an upper gi series. SUPER LONG AND DEVESTATING STORY SHORT...... i came in, had it done, was leaving & bumped into my surgeon who stopped me & told me i had a leak (in the hall way), got a CT scan, called my mom crying hysterical, met with my surgeon & found out that i had 2options. 1. gastric bypass.. ERRRR NOPE! 2. stent with a shot of botox. but he told me i can be in the hospital for 8weeks!!!! WDFFFFFF???? 8weeks? not happening!!!!! i broke down & began crying hystericallly and uncontrollably when i heard this. then he said if i felt better sooner that i can go home. they dont see how i have a leak since i have no symptoms other than yellow bile. im doing GREAT!!!!!! smh. so now, im admitted into the hospital. this is a nightmare come true & im waiting to wake up. they are going to place the stent tomorrow & i guess see where i go from there. as far as one girls go with the nachos comment, as i stated on that post... the nachos basically melted in my mouth & did not cause my leak! my surgeon says he believes food did not cause my leak so im not worried about that!

i remember being able to eat 5-6 regular slices of pizza with 2 glasses of pepsi. thats crazyyy! i knew i needed this surgery for that reason. i have an appetite like a pig! now, yes i miss big portions of food but 5-6 slices is excessive!

thats a great story! i always want to over eat & i have by a bite & it really is uncomfortable. i still need to learn and ACCEPT some of the early signs!

im having the same problem. i been getting numbness & i feel like my inner thighs are a little numb when i walk.

i want soda so bad... so bad! i almost took a few sips today but i chickened out. ill be 5weeks out on tuesday.

yes... im scarred for life.. im terrified of fires & i always have the thought that i will one day be trapped in a fire too. very scary!!!! :/

i am so sorry to hear! march 14, 2003, my house burned down after living there my entire life. i lost everything including 5family members. it was nothing less than a tragedy! i know exactly what youre going thru. i think you should push back surgery until youre more stable & in a better space! good luck to u.

hmm i been pottying a lot today & yesterday. i wonder if im becoming lactose intolerant

i agree the nachos fall under sliders but def not the mozzerellasticks. i actually had them 2x (went to a restaurant) & the second time, i peeled off the breading. the cheese has Protein. unfortunately, i cant eat solids yet & my sleeve is very picky. if i eat something i dont like, i will throw it up within seconds. shakes are out of the question for me. i only had the nachos because i was at the movies and had not eaten in hrs & had a lot of gas. they dont have food there. i wont be eating nachosfor a very long time!!!

i had mine at lawrence in bronxville. they have a great team there.

omgoodness.. 12hr shifts? i couldve NEVER!!

as long as you are on mushies & arent pushing it, i doubt u will cause a leak. leaks are not as common as people think. i am 4 weeks post op & i live off of spaghetti & meatballsfrom acan & i was approved to eat that by my nurse practioner. she said if i want to eat it 6x aday than so be it! we will still lose weight since its smaller portions and it has enough calories & some protein.

really? where are you having surgery? or have you had it done already?

so much better! thanks for asking!