jasleeve

amazing woman she is!

hahaha!!! thanks! its all because of her!

thats so sweeet!

shes the greatest & has no idea how great and awesome she made me feel. im so thankful for you guys! youre all anazing & i appreciate you all.

youre pure awesomeness!!!! i always felt your love & support and now i feel it stronger than ever!!!! monday they remove my stent at 11am & i couldnt be anymore excited!!!!!!!!! this has been pure hell but you guys have helped me thru this process & i so appreciate it.

nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. i want to squeeze her!

you have absolutely no idea!!!!!! its the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me & she has been so supportive throughout my journey & my many complications.

we all know favoredone! this is a MUST READ!!! today i was having a bad day. nearly passed out while shopping and felt so weak & sick & i have a bunch of pain in my chest & back from this stent. i came home & took a nap when my mom came & knocked on my door with a box from proflowers. i was confused by who it mightve been from until reading the beautiful message inside. BEAUTIFUL 2 DOZEN MULTI COLORED ROSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://instagr.am/p/HIG78foFby/ you turned my day right around. you made my nose tingle as tears streamed from my face. i couldnt believe how someone could be so nice to me! im so not used to people doing things for me! it wasso sweet! i neeeded this & i love it. thank you for always being so supportive, loving & caring! it feels great to know i have asister some where out there who is looking out for me! thank you! no words can express how i really feel... seriously! god bless you! thank you! i love ya!!! sleeve sisters<3

how long did you have it in for?

MONDAY AT 11AM MY STENT COMES OUT!!!!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!

i would love to post but dont know how to get a html code to post the picture on here

wow... i just took a pic of myself posing how i did in an old pic pre-op & wow!!!! my face and neck looked like one big fat roll. now, u can see my jaw bone. yikes! big difference.

yayyyyyy! thats great news joe! u are well on ur way!!!! i cant wait until its my turn.

i actually forgot to mention this yesterday! yesterday, my on/off again boyfriends coworker (who is a personal trainer) saw me and his reaction was "DAMMMMMN GIRL YOU LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT!!!!!" and it made me feel so awkward. first thought that popped in my head was "dont ask me how plz!!!" cuz i wouldve lied being that surgery is a secret... and the second thought that popped in my head was, "if only you knew the hell im going through thats forcing me to lose this weight!!!" i noticed that i dont embrace this change. in fact, i resent it. i wouldve prefered to have gained the weight than to have lost it had i known id be going thru this. pre-op, i wouldve said & done anything to have this surgery because i wanted to be smaller, healthier, FREE from my insecurities, feel my age (23), etc. but now that im going through these complications, i realized that i wouldve done ANYTHING to have the surgery with NO COMPLICATIONS!!!!!! but had these symptoms been a definite, surgery wouldve been out of the question! its like cancer or aids... we think it cant/wont happen to us but it does happen! look at me now. i have a leak!!!! im not comparing myself to cancer or aids patients but im sure they were FLABBERGASTED when told they have the fatal disease & i swear, im still shocked at the fact i have a leak! & now im even having complications WITH the complication fixer (stent). its like i can never win!!!! i tell all my pre-op friends to be sure like a billion percent sure that youre willing to give up your life (because its what i feel ive done) for this surgery!!! and if you are going to go through with it... you need to PRAY for the best but PREPARE for the worst because when $h!+ hits the fan (as it did for me), theres no stopping it! youre forced to do EVERYTHING you dont want! i dont know how many times i felt i may not wake up & id wake up thanking god for skipping me again! im only 23! this is no way to live.

i wish my days away for this exact reason!!! i cant wait.

i tried having a second smoothie yesterday & it wasnt as comfortable. i dont know why but it was disappointing! i thought i had found a little outlet. i even bought a bigger size in hopes it would last longer. ;/

the chest pain is kicking in (caused by the stent) & is moving to my back. just took adose of loritab. im praying to be sleep soon!!!! goodnight

thats how i feel! the pain even goes to my back. i feel like i cant get a break!

i mean, portion wise no. food wise, as long as your stomach can handle it. i cant believe the left your stent in for so long!!!! i cant. i refuse.

wow... a nightmare!!!

why cant u eat? when did they remove it?

2 MONTHS???????? omg!!!! mine will be one month on the 26th & i want it out on the 20th!

how long did you keep yours in for? i miss food too since i havent been eating!

(VENTING) in june 2011, i had began my research on WLS. i googled & searched for hours and hours! i mean like thousands of hours leading up until the day i had surgery & even after! nothing in the world couldve prepared me for this experience. i wouldve been better off jumping head first into surgery without researching than to have done theresearch & been knocked down like this. i get so angry thinking about how this happened to me! i had read others stories. i had read how ppl regretted surgery because of their complications but the majority of ppl said if they had to do it again, they would!!!! i just wish i had contact with someone who was actually going thru something like this! i thought by now that i wouldve been on cloud 9, healed, enjoying life, happy, eating, exercising, shopping & feeling young! dont get me wrong... im 23! i wanted to feel 23! i was tired of feeling 40&50! now i feel like im 50&60! life is so hard & i pray that the man upstairs blesses me with health soon. do u know i look at my mom who can drink Water with no problem & i get jealous? i say to myself, "damn.. i dont even feel human. i cant eat, i cant drink... what can i do?" my mom at times complains of a migraine. i dont want to minimize her health issues or stress level because i know shes stressed but at the sametime, i look at her & chuckle. i look at her & really want to say, "i wish my only issue was a migraine!!!!" i feel selfish at times. its hard. i think the fact that i am young has a lot to do with it. maybe if i were older, more experienced with life, more wisdom & such, id feel differently or view things differently. i dont know. these are just my thoughts & im just speaking whats on my mind. thanks for reading!!

i wouldnt be able to follow any rules except stay hydrated anyway. i cant eat or tolerate anything to eat & i def cant force anything i dont like down because i will throw it back up. i cant even smell food without gaggin :/ only thing i really want all the time is juice.