I didn't realize how odd my OP must have sounded until I read your replies.
Yes, it is true that WW made me obsessive. I meant that. It (helped to) completely warp and alter my way of thinking about calories and nutrients. I think that it only did this to me because of whatever underlying issues I had.....I DO think that WW is a GREAT program. Just maybe not the perfect one for me. (This is not an anti-WW vent or anything!)
I think I am leaning toward disordered eating. The vomitting is because food gets stuck. How can it get stuck with no Fluid in the band? I throw up so much that even the thought of eating makes me nauseated. If my surgeon wasn't such a jerk about answering questions perhaps I would talk to him. (He's at Baptist. I know it's a Center of Excellence, but his bedside manner is not.) While I do not require hand-holding or someone treating me like I have no responsiblity in this at all, just a tiny bit of humanity and kindness would be appreciated. (I'm talking about the Dr still here, not anyone on the board!)
I feel like I'm taking small bites, the same size I was taking when I had fluid in my band for the first couple of years with no stuck feeling. I 'chew to goo'. When I feel so stuck I think, "Wow, I must have eaten a HUGE amount and I didn't realize it!" then I throw up and it's such a tiny amount.
And, yes I think that there is a fine line between this being physical and this being psychological. I'm not denying that.
I thought my stats were in my profile. I guess I should put them in a sig line. I started at 260. I'm currently at 180. My goal weight is 110. I am 5'4 and pretty small boned. (my fingers wrap around my wrist and then some.) I was never able to even say with a straight face, "I'm just big-boned".
I'm a stress baker and my oven has been working overtime lately. In one 48 hour period I made 6 Desserts. Ironically, the more I bake......the less I eat.
I don't know what size band I have. It's a Realize band. I know that 1 cc was not that much. That's why it surprised me when suddenly I was way too restricted on it. Then.....even more surprising that even with it empty I am still too tight. I've had an abdominal x-ray to check for a slip. none noted and the band looks fine.