songbird_kay

thank you so much to everyone for your very kind comments. I feel very good and hope that in my two year update I will have a baby on my hip

that is total. I started my weight loss journey on April 12th 2010 and lost the 45ish in just over 2 months. the rest i lost from june 21st until december. Since december I have held steady at 185ish. My body has continued to change some (I have gone down a pant size since dec) but my weight itself is the same.

why the rolling eyes?

Today is the one year anniversary of my weight loss surgery. The surgeon said it would take AT LEAST a year to get to goal... two years with "typical" results. Goes to show him I am not a typical patient hahaha I did this surgery for one BIG reason which really lit a fire under my butt.... I want to be a mom. So I hope that piece of the puzzle happens for me soon. The Beginning.... Day Before Surgery. Down about 45 lbs Now!!! A total loss of 130 lbs +/-

absolutely no regrets

sorry i didn't update.... i have been going through a lot emotionall (not related to vsg at all....) so, sorry about that. it resoleved itself pretty quickly actually with not much therapy. i am fine now and don't have any issues from the ulcer. i think we must have cought it really early.

i lost A LOT of hair between 3 and 6 months and then it slowed down dramatically. I have 2 inch long hair growth allllll over my head now and am thinking of cutting my hair really short since the rest of it is really thin. i hate looking at my christmas pictures (6 months post op) because my hair was so thin and you could see my scalp but it is soooo much better now.

you're right..... oh so true. I also know i look good in clothes.... it's just when I get ready for bed, BDing or in the shower that i look at myself and sigh.... I try to remember that the sagging skin is just testiment to my hard work, but it is also testiment to my horrible habits that got me to where i was.... ya.... i have taken a lot of pics along my journey and going back to look at where i was and where i am helps at times. i know i look better to people.... I just don't FEEL different. Doesn't help that I feel like DH only wants to have sex when it is baby making time. Everyone seems to think he is probably wanting to jump me all the time because I "look sooo good!!" uh.... not even close. And.... I have realized I Am eating horribly and probably subconsciously WANT to put on weight... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!?!?!

ya..... it's our 5th miscarriage, but the first time i have been able to get pregnant in 3 years. it was quite shocking because i fully expected everything to be different and go perfectly.... goes to show you that losing the weight may not change the big picture. hopefully we will get pregnant again soon... and you too!!!!

I had my surgery at kaiser fremont last june. Who's your surgeon???

i realize now, i never updated.... I miscarried at 6 weeks 1 day. the RE thinks it is just one of those things that can happen to any normal healthy woman and that I will get pregnant again... sux though. Obviously.

Anyone at goal and still having body issues? I look at myself and still feel like I look horrible I have saggy skin everywhere (even discovered my butt is saggy last week... depressing) and honestly, I think I felt more sexy when I weighed over 300 lb Also..... I am well under goal (20 pounds below) and it kinda depresses me to hear of other people being size 2.... I guess I need to just realize I will NEVER be a size 2 and a size 12 is normal and healthy FOR ME, but..... I feel like I am a failure and will never be skinny. sigh.....

I added healthy carbs and a 4th meal/snack in the afternoon.

thanks soooo much!

believe me... i get the struggle. I have a long excriciating STC story. If anything, it should give hope that it really can happen. Doctors said we would have to do ivf with icsi or use donor sperm with my Dhs sperm count. not to mention not being able to get my body to even ovulate until i lost 128 pounds!