I know all too well what you are going through. I was banded 6/29 and have been eating solids. I have no restriction whatsoever. I was told that through the fills I would feel the restriction but also after having surgery that normally you wouldn't feel hungry because you are healing. Well that went away quickly like a few days after surgery. Even then I tried holding back from trying solids. But then came the taste testing, then after testing would actually be full meals. Now, I am eating as much as I did before. I have been suffering from emotional eating/binges for a good while now, well to be exact...about 10 years. This is the heaviest I have ever been in my life and I just don't feel good about myself and am depressed. All this makes me stay heavy. At first when I started wanting the band I was so excited thinking this is my last resort and that I WILL MAKE IT WORK. Well I had the surgery almost 3 weeks ago and now that I am back to being depressed again because of me not sticking to the plan am not thinking positive like I was 3 weeks before or even 2 months before. I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I haven't had my first fill yet, but it's hard for me to stay positive knowing that I have an emotional issue that I have to deal with. If I don't deal with this emotional issue before I get my fill then it will be of no use to get it. I am going to look into getting help to deal with my issues. I really do want the band to work for me and I have to think of it as a tool to get healthy and not some easy way to lose weight. Cause it won't be easy, the band is here to help but I have to do the hard work. I have to keep myself from eating in between meals, I have to be the one to exercise, I have to be the one to say NO when satisfied, and I have to be the one to love myself enough to say ENOUGH to sabotaging myself. This isn't going to be an easy journey for either of us but we have to find a way to look at the positive. Because there are many of bandsters out there that have been successful with losing the weight and have kept it off. We are worth it!!!! There isn't anything wrong with you, we all have our issues with why we are overweight. We just have to learn to deal with those issues and kick the habit. If you need to talk, I am here for you.