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A Kabob would instantly pop in my hand when I am hungry. I hate cooking. I go for easy stuff.

Shrimp Kabob

Beef Kabob

chicken Kabob

At 15 months out this past week was the 2nd week since sugery I didn't lose. It makes me feel good, but also scary...I ate a lot more this past week...but anymore...I would gain. I hate my kitchen and where I live so I still live on string cheese and lean cuisine, but I really need some low cal Snacks. Eating some junk food here and there is ok, but I am starting to eat it everyday. I am trying now to push my dinner so it is a little closer to bedtime...helps with less snacking. I am totally scared of gaining the weight back. I just hope I don't get into old habits of feeling like...oh well...I want it so I am going to eat it attitude. I need to learn some self control. It is a day by day process.

scales suck and they are all different. Is there a true scale anywhere?

If you really think about...now that we have the sleeve once we get to a stable weight, we are in fact eating a normal amount otherwise we would continue to lose. I eat way more 15 months out...I feel like I eat normal and what I should have been eating all along. Portion sizes, the amount I'd sugar in our food...it is all just disgusting. I spun out of control and knew that surgery was the only way to control my inability to control myself. I feel bad for the people still on the dark side. It is a horrible place to be.

There could be a potential hippa violation. If you didn't tell anyone at work how did they find out?

DC has the most PS in the country and it is the most expensive place for PS. I grew up here, but the more I live here the more I realize that this place is a money pit in every single way!

@lee...did you have the fat transfer into your butt and inner thigh lift in the same surgery?

You all are so brave! I wish I had the courage. I probably will have no choice but to go to mexico! Do they take care credit? I need fat transfer into butt and thigh lift...just went for a consultation and dr. Said these should be separate surgeries.

Inner thigh lift, Lipo and fat transfer into the buttocks! $20k done in two surgeries six months to a year apart starting with the lipo and fat transfer. I would have to have the vertical scar in my thighs, but that is ok because that basically eliminates the potential of having a stretched labia. Well all of that scares me way more than VSG, and I am not going to do anything right now. I was very self conscience at the beach this summer and really just want to, for once, be free from those chains. A lot to think about. I did like the surgeon. $11,500 was just the lipo and fat transfer. I feel there are less expensive options for that. $8,500 for the thigh lift. Scary stuff!

Personally I do believe it was the easy way. With the exception of my not so fun first six months this has been fairly easy. Why do people always want to struggle. I understand hard work and how by working hard and accomplishing a goal can provide satisfaction, but washing my car at the car wash makes me feel just as good as washing the car myself. I might save a little more money by washing it myself, but for me, I like the fact that someone else can wash it. Now if only I could get my MBA that easy! I do believe people who elect to have this surgery are fed up and tired of struggling. I do believe we had to make a scary and tough decision to go through with the surgery. For us, just to do that, says a lot about our character. We either felt hopeless and just like a drug addict had hit rock bottom or we knew that we could keep going year after year and opted to change our lives. We are not scared. We are strong. I see people everyday that need this surgery, but opt not to take a risk. We are risk takers! You don't get anywhere by sitting in the sidelines.

So basically every time I get nervous of losing too much I write a post! It is so crazy that one day I am scared of gaining and the next scared of losing. I weighed 163 on my scale this morning which means on my doctor's scale and other scales I would be between 159 and 163. I wish there was a true scale. At 5'11" I am fine with where I am but for the past 4 months I have lost 4 pounds each month and my eating has been pretty consistent. I have been trying for the past two months too add more calories, but I do honestly believe since adding calories hasn't been consistent the change up in my routine has caused me to keep losing. I am still ok and feel like I could get down to 155...but I am really thinking that should be it! My doctor said 180. I said 170. Now I am 160! To be under 160 really wasn't a possibility (in my mind) but I am basically there. I just wish I knew when I was going to stop. I have not bought anything for clothes because you lose 7 or 8 pounds and those clothes don't fit right! So I wear the same clothes over and over again. Thank goodness for forever 21 because I was able to get a pair of jeans and pencil skirt for less than 20 dollars. The jeans I bought for $80 are worthless now. Never again. Just venting! I am 15 months out and still losing!

With over a year out these days always scare me. I know it is because my period is coming! I gotta make sure these next few days I watch it!!!

What is sublingual?

These past two days I have been feeling hungry!!! Must remember to get cucumbers the week before my period! I basically ate two dinners tonight! I also need the sugar free popsicles! 7 days of eating like this and I could totally see some weight gain. Today I probably ate 2000 calories easy! I Only had high calorie foods! What low calorie foods pack a good punch in terms of volume?

I am 5'11". I am wearing a size 8! I have never in my life been this thin and I am going to do everything in my power to wear a bikini and feel like a super model. Plastics, whatever! I started finally working out. I want to be a size 6. With the skin removal probably would be a size 6!

It is weird but I find that taking a small sip or two of a drink keeps me full longer. So I eat less because I know I am going to have a sip of a drink.

I will not miss the fact that hotel towels only cover up 1/2 my body and the bathrobes don't cover my thighs all the way!

I will also not miss the fear of getting on an elevator with other people and wondering if it will bounce too much because of my weight.

I will not miss the tears.

I will not miss eater's remorse because I stuffed myself.

I will not miss McDonald's.

I will not miss Lane Bryant - however it is the longest store card I have ever had so I will keep it and use it occasionally to buy jewelry so that they keep reporting me to the credit bureaus

I will not miss sitting on any couch anywhere and using a pillow (if available) to cover up my stomach.

I will not miss people moving out of my way when they pass by me.

I will not miss me saying...I don't eat that much I don't know why I am fat. (obviously I was eating that much)

I will not miss feeling like crap everyday.

I will not miss being self conscience all the time and avoiding most social situations.

I will not miss my mattress caving in.

I will not miss my feet hurting every morning.

I am 35 and my neck has this weird thing going on but who cares! I feel I can see more lines but when I watch TV all the actresses have them so I am thinking it is normal!

I actually went to Dr. Salameh...why?...because he was the only one who took care credit but he was a great choice! I work at the Crime Museum. If everyone wants to get together one day we could all meet at my museum and have a meet up! It might be fun!

The doctors in DC are the most expensive in the entire country! Dr. Markmann wants like $19k for a Brazilian butt lift. That is just ridiculous. I have a consultation in September with a surgeon in VA. I told myself that I would not have surgery until I really gave good effort in working out. I really am going to start now. I finally feel ready...which ever since I have been taking Vitamin D and b-12 I feel better. I was kind of in a funk, but I am ready ready ready! So I will see him for pricing, but wouldn't consider doing anything until January or February. I do feel like my body is changing but only time will tell. Then the whole $20k for plastics!! That just is overwhelming. I still owe $5k for the sleeve! I have to pay that by November soni don't get charged any interest. I just wish I had $50k to pay everything off & have plastics! Thigh lift, lower body lift, breast lift, Botox, and whatever else!!! Surprisingly I am totally fine with my arms.

No regrets. I love watching at the people be stuffed after eating and I am just slightly full. I still have great restriction after a year and two months. My doctor's goal was 180, my goal was 170...I weigh 165 and I am still losing. I lost 4 pounds last month! I do not see it. I know I am waaaaaay thinner, but I still feel thick. I take pics...that is the way I notice. I hope to lose another 15, but where I am is pretty fabulous!

I was a month! But I was self pay.