june13sleever

I am I one year today. Need an inner thigh lift. Not sure when I will get it, but I know I will. Tummy tuck at some point too, but will wait to meet with a doctor. Have a consultation on August 3rd with one doctor. Washington, DC is out of this world expensive in comparison to other markets. My sleeve was $18k.

That sounds like the balloon. Not in the US. My friend in Saudi Arabia just did it.

With all that working out are you getting enough protien?

Tomorrow is my year. See my signature.

Took two. Needed three. That third week sucked. I was tired and cranky and felt like poo!

Took two. Needed three. That third week sucked. I was tired and cranky and felt like poo!

You guys will be feeling great after a year. I had all of this experiences. Now I can pretty much tolerate everything.

This is good to know. I am hoping to jet out in July.

Smitty I will ride your bike for you until you can ride

My poor thighs. I am still going to have to wear shorts in the water until I have an inner thigh lift. I do still feel self conscience but at least I don't feel like a slave to food. That by far was the worst. I have flabby inner thighs, but I still like what I see more than I did before.

This is why I want to make a documentary on these shows. I love them, but at the same time I think some of them are just plain hogwash. The whole industry is manipulating you into a false reality and then selling you apps, diet pills and more. It is all about $.

I 2nd that. I still owe $6K that needs to be paid off by November.

I am probably feeling a little I LOVE THE SLEEVE TODAY! I fit into a size 8 dress!

You will be!

I also really love the fact that I am a former fat girl turned super model! My issues of low self-esteem contributed to my need to compare myself to skinnier women. Why can't I be that size? Why can't my legs look like that? Why do I have a muffin top? I mean it is a big problem for me. I know alot of fat people do this. So I would feel so super awesome to have someone look at me and think...I wish I was skinny like her and then I would get to say...YOU CAN BE SKINNY! YOU CAN BE THIN! YOU CAN BE HEALTHY! I WAS YOU! I AM YOU! AND YOU ARE ME! I want to tell everyone. I am so glad that I don't give McDonald's & Taco Bell my money anymore...I am so glad that no one is now profiting from my obesity. I was a regular customer to the McDouble Crack House. I want to tell Coke and Pepsi to shove their sugary drinks up their wazoo. We are proponents of change and really some of the strongest people to make this decision. Most people are not making this decision. I feel like not telling your story is doing a disservice to the one person that maybe needs to hear it.

Comparing weight loss surgery to cancer? Cancer isn't something you choose to get. If a fat person came up to me and I said I lost the weight through diet and working out...really? Obviously the only people we should be lying to is the Military because they won't let you in. Other than that...people lie about cancer or don't disclose the illness because they are in fear of getting fired or just in fear of cancer itself. They are in fear of discrimination. I mean is weight loss surgery really that serious? I believe most fat people live in a constant state of feeling discriminated against, which pretty much is true...so maybe most people are still afraid of discrimination and of what others might think because they have been the victim of weightism for so long. I tell everyone. You don't have to, but I wouldn't lie to another obese person. The Bottom Line is only 5% of people that lose the weight keep it off. Surgery, for now, is really the only chance at staying at healthy weight for a long period of time or for forever. I just couldn't lie to someone...unless I was playing survivor for one million dollars. For that one I would have to say...the grapefruit diet. I am not trying to argue or push my point across to anyone. We all do our own thing and that is cool. I just don't care what people think about my choice and I can't seem to grasp why anyone cares anyway.

I have been weighing myself weekly for one year. I never really stalled, just had a blip in December that I now attribute to having a really bad cold. Tomorrow is my one year anniversary. I am going to go weigh myself on my doctor's scale just to get a more accurate reading. I am also going to try to weigh myself every other week moving forward and hopefully getting to a place where I weigh in once a month. I weigh myself mostly in fear of losing too much. I am liking the thinner me even more than I thought and don't really care if I lose another 10 over the next couple of months. I have weighed the same for the past two weeks, and I am happy with that as well. I think weighing yourself daily is a little extreme, but we all need to do what makes us happy.

I feel it is lying. I mean most of us couldn't keep the weight off if in fact we ever lost it. So someone who is fat...who asks me how I lost it...even the sort of skinny pudgy people who only have 40 to lose, but it eats away at them...I have to tell them the truth. Most people will not be able to sustain weight loss until they find a drug to help with keeping the weight off or they have weight loss surgery or they have more will power than most people to continually battle obesity. We all gave up in the battle and decided to get help. For me personally I have worked out at all. I lost the weight through calorie restriction and thanks to the sleeve I wasn't hardly hungry and could avoid over eating. The question was can you keep it a secret. Yes, you can. I have not had all the crazy drama because I only have small circle of friends and work in a small office. I think I would laugh hysterically if I had to deal with some of the morons most people on this site have to deal with because I am the smart one here. Stay fat if you want to! I REFUSE! Be upset that I am skinny, whatever! Who cares. I just feel like we should be honest to those who really need to know the truth aka other fat people. Skinny people wouldn't even really understand.

I went from thick to thin...and one year later no regrowth. I am hopeful, but if it doesn't come back oh well. Less $ on hair shampoo & conditioner and less time blow drying and flat ironing. I can do it now in 20 minutes. Before it was an hour. I would take the hour for more hair, but there is always a good side.

I tell everyone. So many people suffer, and I think if they can see my success than they might make the decision to change their life. The decision is the hardest part of the whole thing (at least for me). Now after watching all the episodes of Weight of a Nation on HBO, I feel compelled to tell even more people about it. The part about the way our bodies act when we are on a diet is a very compelling reason to have the surgery. We should be proud that we took a drastic measure because doing in on your own is a constant battle of the mind and body.

I had the lump in my throat for a very long time after surgery. It did go away eventually.

I eat carbs, but it is crazy how hungry they make you. After a year I can eat way more, and I could see myself slipping, but dense protien never fails. You have got to eat meat for Breakfast, lunch and dinner. chicken & Tuna. I can get away with cheese for breakfast because I don't have alot of hunger pangs...If you do then you have to EAT meat. I can easily eat a slice of pizza...which could be about 300 to 400 calories. The amount of chicken I could eat to get to 300 to 400 calories would be WAY more than my sleeve could handle. After I eat the pizza...I am hungry again or want to snack. 1400 calories is way too much! I never eat fruit...it is just sugar and it goes down so easy. Meat, meat, meat and more meat. Then I eat these GREAT protien chips for my chip cravings. I eat ice cream sometimes. I keep a rotisserre chicken in my fridge at home at all times.

One year later I am pretty thin! I think everyone would have thought I was smoking the pipe.

You see...I can't have children. All my friends have kids. I am very jealous. I cry a lot about it and it is very difficult to be around my friends. I love their kids, but their life is different. They go take the kids to birthday parties, they always talk about them... It isn't easy for me, and I keep my distance. I am never mean or rude which may be different from some people do, but everyone processes things differently. They may be mean or distant, but the truth is things have changed. So you may win some or lose some, but don't be too upset or try to reach out to them.