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inspiring! ty! and a major HIGH FIVE!

God love ya! I hope you are able to eat soon ) Great Blog .....Keep 'em coming!!!!!

Well first ..... I know I blog a lot and I love the fact that I will be able to look back on my journey! I GOT INSURANCE PRE-APPROVAL!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D I go Monday for my Medical Evaluation..... I think I am more excited than a 5 year old on Christmas Eve... Leads me to my question of I wonder if.....I wonder if I will be this excited when I pass successfully through each step!!! I AM SO STUPID EXCITED RIGHT NOW.....

GOOD LUCK KAT!!! AND WHERE IS MY LIKE BUTTON FOR THE HAPPY DANCE!

so why do I feel like I'm going to throw up? I have waited and worked what seems like my whole life (14 years old) to not be "fat" so what is the big deal with waiting 48 hours for a response from my insurance........GEESH.......I am hoping the doctor calls me today ..... Beyond insurance....I think I will be okay............

<3 thank you Kimmy and DeeDee.... Only question.....The only doctor I have been to since 2009 was my OBGYN while I was pregnant....before that was military doctors....all over...what the heck am I supposed to do??????????????????

Does anyone have Blue Cross Blue Shield of North Carolina? I am being told there isn't a set "time" for supervised diet with them.....any feedback???

Good luck to you Shonda! I wish you the best on your lap band journey!!!

<3 Thank you ladies both! I love the fact that there really are people who understand..... I want to tell my family but just think it's better to wait....... @ Allison good luck and congrats on getting the band!!!! I can't wait to share with you guys once I get the approval! I pray I get it!!! <insert fingers crossed>

Went to the seminar last night and met the Doctor! I am impressed with how much I still learned at the seminar. Spoke with his office today and registered online with their office and now I am waiting........on the insurance approval. I am doing okay not getting to excited....I mean it still seems like this can't be real to me. Maybe it's my self preservation mode kicking in.... so many attempts with diets and pills....failed miserably. I have only told 4 people I'm considering it (outside of you guys of course ) I just think that if it doesn't happen for me right now it will be easier to take the blow the less people know.....make sense? On the possitive side the doctor said that if they approve everything I could have my band in as little as 5 - 6 weeks WOW! REALLY.... Oiy' these butterflies need to fly away.......I'm not in high school anymore....

THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK! I was thinking that is the case myself. I am okay with that actually.....to me what is 6 months wait as to the possiblility of never being able to loose the weight on my own. I am only anxious to know. I go to the seminar tomorrow so maybe the will tell me something more then. I called the insurance company twice and asked....both said they don't required any length of time but that I just have to sit down with a doctor, and nutritionist. Well....that's fine...but they only get to see what I see when they send the "medical policy" .....it's the prior review team that really knows and apparently only the doctor can talk to them But thank you for responding...this helps!

I am in the first stages and steps myself. I am going to the required seminar tomorrow night at 6:00 and I am so anxious. I think just to really start more than anything. My insurance isn't clear about the "supervised diets" so I have to wait and see..... I am fine if I have to wait that 6 months (considering how long I've been..."over weight") just wanting to know. Enough about me! I hope you are successful I do hope you keep posting....It will be nice to have someone to read along with! ~Arnetta

Now let me start by saying sleep is hard to get for me to begin with. I have a 2 year old that sleep walks and a 5 month old that still wakes up at 11pm and 4am for feedings. And so now that I've taken the 1st steps come all the what if's that are keeping we awake. Like the.....what if this really happens for me? 1. will it work? 2. will I be able to play with my kids and not feel like I'm dying? 3. will people finally see me and not the fat? 4. will I look good in clothes again? OH THE POSSIBILITIES...... and the questions and day dreams don't stop there.....I found myself getting nothing done yesterday at the office and then sitting in my bed last night eyes WIDE OPEN considering all the possibilities. I promised myself I wouldn't do that you see. Just incase my insurance denies me...but I can't help it....what this would do for me and what it has done for so many has me sitting on the edge of my seat.....like waiting for the part you know is coming as the music gets louder and louder ...... So I ask...what is sleep? I am not sure I will get any for a minute or two.... Let's just hope it's worth it.

Thank you for your well wishes! Funny Brenda...I always call myself chunky (lightens the blow - no pun intended) lol @Lovethenewme .....Here's me all of 5 feet and 1/8th of an inch...and yes I'm proud of the 1/8th part...top the scale a 264 and get told the pretty "face" thing too..... which would be fine if you only went out in public with your FACE 'oiy I am so glad to be talking with people who GET IT!

Could this ever be a reality? I hope so.... I, as many of you, have had weight issues my whole life. I have tried the "diet & excersice" routine religiously in the past....and well I'm here today so I'm sure you know the outcome and how successful I have been in t he past. Funny enough though, I decided a couple of weeks ago to take Oprah's stance on it (after yet another failed attempt at a similiar version of the Atkin's Diet) I decided that I "would not be defined by my weight". You know one of those attempts to pacify our mind so that maybe we can stop torturing yourself with the unrealistic goals. But as always that to never last..... My last straw .....(that moment when you give up on your own ability to control your weight and seek help from anyone or anything) happend just recently on June 9th, 2011. In a conversation with my boss about me finding a new doctor now that my insurance has kicked in, I asked who he uses(just a family doctor).....the conversation (one sided at this point) went a little something like this...... "oh my Dr. is great but he isn't what you would expect from a Dr. He so fat. I mean when I say FAT I mean really FAT. How unhealthy should a Dr. be. It's rediculous! He so short and dumpy. Just to give you an idea of what I'm talking about, and no offense to you, but he's shaped like you." Let's just say that I cried for hours when I went home for the day.....He said it like it was a KNOWN FACT....no big deal he just called me short, fat, and dumpy. :'o('' and later I was told that his "culture" doesn't see anything wrong with.....wait for it.....the truth. Oh thanks for that one too! So now a few short days later with a wonderful supportive husband by myside, I have been in touch with my insurance company and signed up for a required seminar to try and start this process. so to say the least I am excited, nervous, scared, worried, and anxious all at one time....but all with reservation because it's not hard to remember how it feels to be disappointed each time you feel your dreams are within reach to only fail again........I don't want this life anymore. Keeping my head up and hope to be posting more blogs in the future about my "journey" to my healthy me!