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well...not really but I did decide to get on the scale this morning just to see. Before I started my 2 week liquid pre op diet I weighed in at 268 lbs. It truly has been probably 7 years since I've seen the scale do anything but go up each time I step on it. For Pete sake even when I went to the doctor last time I gained a pound despite being more active. So I had no intentions of getting on the scale again until I went back to the doctor, but after 3 days of only liquid and NO CHEATING I new I had to have lost at least a pound or two right and it could really be good motivation! So I get on the scale and I just stare at it.....honestly in disbelief. Could this be true? I mean I've worked hard to not cheat.....I've tried to walk places I would usually not.... even though I was sure it wouldn't make much difference but it was a start...and I drink my 4 shakes a day...even though I HATE THEM! After all that .....was I really reading the scale right. So I blinked and yep the number was still there.......260 lbs!!!! 260lbs after only 3 days. I can't help myself everytime I think about it I want to cry!!!! 8lbs even without the lap bad is a big move in the right direction for me!!! Even if I only loose a pound or two more on the pre op diet I am so stoked about what I have already lost! This feels good. What weight loss is expected during this time??? How much did you loose? Did you gain any back once you were had the lap band and are able to eat again?

I love advice like this. I have always been a fan of learning from others and now is no different. I am STOKED to have found such a wonderful group of people. I have learned more here from you guys than I ever would have thought. The support is amazing. It is nice to know that someone like me is out there and you have been so successful! And really happy to hear you are back on track!!! I read your blog when you posted it a little while back. I'm taking in every experience and can't thank you enough for your advice and sharing your experience with me!

God love you. And I hope it's okay but I will pray for you. Depression isn't easy and I have delt with it myself. Sometimes the medicine they gave me only made things worse. It's really important to find the right medicine. Good luck with your journey..... :welldoneclap:

You are doing great! Day 4 for me too!!!! ) I feel faint but doing good and pushing forward! KEEPING OUR EYE ON THE PRIZE!!!!! Glad to be doing this with you Kab!!!

<BR><BR><BR>I was just going back through my blogs and saw this reply.....you are truly an amazing person and I feel like I've met a friend. Thank you.

Am I excited...OH YEAH! :Banane13: I start the liquid diet on Thursday. I never thought I would be so excited to drink my food and not be able to have anything solid! But when you are ready you are ready! The only thing that makes me nervous (at this point anyway) is cooking dinner. I cook every night and we sit down to dinner family style at the table.....thinking maybe this is when I will have my jello. Or I will say prayers with them and go and have a little quite time and read.....not sure yet. Any advice is truly appreciated.........I am working on my new excerise plan...hope to be back up and working out 4 days a week and walking the other 3 with in a few months. It's been a really long time. And I hope to get my kids involved.....I want them to live a healthier life than I have. My 2 year old is having surgery Thursday as well to have his tonsils and adnoids removed.....little guys snores so bad because of them and rarely sleeps through the night. I am more excited for him. Keep us in your prayers please!

GOOD LUCK! and I know how you feel!

:heart: Thanks! I took those pictures the day after I got approved for the surgery. I did it with both clothes on and then just my bra and underpants.....SCARY and I HATED IT! But I have looked at them a few times for just that....I can't print them off but they are right here on my lap top.... My real motivation is my 8 month old daughter....I want to fix this now before she is old enough to remember me this way and I want to learn to live a healthier life for her and my son so they wont have the same problems I do hopefully. I don't want my daughter to go through her childhood being the "fat girl" like I was....so the way I figure it....the best place to start to try and prevent that is with me. Anyway....long and short of it....I want a better life for my kids and I darn well know that I have to lead by example.

Might or might NOT be so bad.......... You know I don't have to cook for my family every night....my husband has offered to take that over for the time being....but I feel the need to push myself and be around all the food just like I would be any other time. So I'm cooking and sitting with them like we always do for dinner. I figured if I can't do it....what's the point in me going through with the surgery. I have to make changes....but the people around me don't. Food is such a big part of my ENTIRE FAMILY's life that unless I plan on never going around for cookouts, holidays, birthdays, Sunday's, or just what ever...I better get used to this now. I won't NOT be a part of all the get togethers.........(just to give you an idea of how big my family is....I have 15 nieces and nephews....and I wont talk about cousins) It's funny....I had the conversation with my husband before I decided to do this....I said "you know there is still a lot of work you have to do to make this successful even after you have the lap band". I said "it is going to take a lot of will power....but if I had will power I wouldn't need surgery right?" He couldn't answer that question any more than I could.... But it is simple to answer for me today....all of a sudden...and I'm not sure that this will be true for me 6 months from now or not but we will see..... For something that seemed impossible before (loosing weight)....with a tool that can help me.....I feel like I have the will power to do my part and help myself. And I have to add....I am pretty proud of myself... Yes even just 2 days in. I have not only given up solid food for the time being but I have given up sweet tea! For me this is almost as painful as it was when I quit smoking over a year ago! LOL

:waytogo: Glad you are doing so well!

:ugh: :thumbdown: Waiting on insurance approval was very stressful for me as well! It took mine a little more than a week. It is so hard to wait for something you want so bad. And it sucks even more that in all reality you are waiting on someone else to deside something that means THIS MUCH TO YOU and nothing to them! I wanted to scream at them and say...do you realize you pretty much are deciding whether I live or die? But that's just me....I tend to be a little dramatic at times. As hard as it is...give them 5 or 6 days. If you haven't heard back call them. As long as you have done everything they ask there really should be no reason for them to deny you. But I will tell you....you can ask my husband....I felt the same way....almost like they just flip a coin... Keep me updated please

:waytogo: Loved the story. Thanks for sharing. You should be very proud of yourself .......

you are officially my ....hmmm..... "life support" for my lap band. I am drinking what my Dr. said. EAS AdvantEdge. The Whey after taste is what is pushing it over the edge of tolerable to me....... I have never really been a big "shake" of any kind person so to only be allowed to have this....hmm.....not so much. BUT I am GOING TO DO IT DANG IT! I have wanted this since 2003 and kept hitting walls....I am not this close and giving up. NOPE NOPE NOPE!

yep...I said it. And it's only day 1 of my liquid diet. I feel the need to share my experience though. My 2 year old son had his tonsils and adenoids removed today and he is such a champ and doing great. But probably not the best day to have to start my diet. The surgery center was an hour away from home so I packed my 2 shakes in a bag with ice. Chocolate shake...is tolerable but the Cafe one...not so much! Anyway, my Mom came down for his surgery as well and of course her and my husband were starving 5 hours later so they asked if they could grab a bite to eat......DEEP SIGHS....how could I say no. So they decided they wanted Chili's. Can I JUST TELL YOU THAT WAS NO FUN AT ALL!!!!! My hubby felt pretty bad about it but I really wanted him to eat. BUT I made it through lunch......... Now it's dinner.....I made Jacob his noodle soup....reserved the broth for me! YAY! and then I put the roasted potatos and onions on to back with the French's Onion Baked Chicken......... IT IS TIME TO LEAVE THE HOUSE.....Just sayin' So to sum up my blog for the day.....If I make it through the next two weeks I KNOW I WILL be successful with the lapband tool. PS...........I really HATE the shakes

Thank you so MUCH! A little frustrated with myself at 8:06 pm because my tummy is whinning a little louder than I would like it to be right now. Didn't think it was going to be to bad and I pray that tomorrow is a little easier. REALLY NEEDED TO HEAR THAT!