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Thanks Ladies!! Sorry for all the spelling error...jesh...shouldn't type after midnight I guess. LOL

Thanks for the heads up and good questions! Having some of the same myself.

NON SCALE VICTORY....lol It is a good feeling when you are in the middle of a simple conversation with your husband and he stops you to say....."wow, babe...you are really beautiful". and of course I ask him where that came from and he say to me. "You know I think you are beautiful. But you can already see a difference in your self confidence and I really like it". <INSERT HAPPY DANCE> I am CRAZY IN LOVE with my husband. It's weird...5 years together and he still gives me butterflies. I didn't realize how my weight gain had effected my relationship...because of how I felt about myself.....but it did. Everytime I turn around today I have Corey coming up behind me to steal kissed or hugs and to tell me how sexy or beautiful I am. The way he acts you would have thought I had already lost 100lbs instead of 25 to 30lbs. It is wonderful.... It truly reaffirms the fact that I made the right decision to get the surgery. He tells me everyday that he is so proud of me. I know I am a very lucky woman and I cannot thank God enough for such a special man in my life. He's not perfect (Lord knows he can make me mad at times) but he is perfect for me. He likes to read my blogs and is always impressed with the support I receive from all of you ...... but I hope he knows that his support is amazing in itself. THAT IS MY NON SCALE VICTORY SO FAR.....and I would say it's a pretty darn good one!

great blog....huge inspiration to us all! Congrats to you!

Very well said! I decided after last week that every morning I am going to have a great day no matter what. And when I choose not to allow others to influence my day....and I make the choice to have a good day I do. Love the blog! I ANOTHER 4LBS! Yay! ) And today I don't feel the need for an abundance of food

:wow: I love it! I think it's fair to say all of us felt your pain in the beginning as well! My Dr. only allowed AdvantEdge Protein Shakes, Sugar Free Jello and Sugar Free Popsicles. THAT IS IT! Oiy' I'm a "reformed" smoker....it was harder when I did the 2 week liquid diet than when I quit smoking! I COULD NEVER do it again...*laughs* YOU CAN DO THIS and with your attitude I am looking forward to read along with you and be supportive when I can!

<INHALE.> <EXHALE> I open my Facebook today (you know...aka high school) to this wonderful post from my sister in law (who was at one point my "best friend"): "WOO HOO I have lost 50 lbs!!!! Its such an amazing inspiration to be able to prove to myself that I can do it on my own without any weight loss surgery. " hmmm......then this was followed up with post from her friends saying things like: "You go girl! Weight loss surgery is for the weak" "Weight loss surgery is the easy way out" "you should be so proud of yourself for doing it the right way" COME THE FREAK ON! REALLY??????? I MEAN REALLY REALLY WITH THIS CRAP????????? My sister in law and I used to talk about this surgery all the time. When I told her I was getting it she seemed happy for me but not as happy as I had wanted her to be but understood. Afterall, It was something she wanted to. But she doesn't work......and has no insurance. Was I supposed to just not get it because she can't. I wouldn't have wanted her to do that at all. Then my favorite was when I didn't think I was going to get it because the hospital told me at the very last minute that I need $2k.......when I told her she ACTUALLY SOUNDED HAPPY! I am not joking. Anytime I see her she barely speaks to me......and then you go on Facebook and make this kind of comment? So I text her......I am so very proud of you for the weight you have lost! YOU should be proud of yourself. I mean after all you are doing it the right way and not taking the easy way out like me. She actually had the nerve to text me back and say...."don't be down on yourself for getting the surgery" ARE YOU KIDDING ME WITH THIS?????????? I'm DONE.....DON'T YOU DARE SAY YOU ARE DOING THIS THE RIGHT WAY AND I AM NOT.......EXSPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE TAKING PHENTERMINE! I am truly happy she has found a way to help her loose weight......and I know that even with a tool like phentermine...it is STILL HARD WORK. DON'T YOU DARE JUDGE ME AND TAKE POT SHOTS AT ME. What is it I was told before.....the surgery could strain relationships and I could even loose some. RELATIONSHIP LOST - CHECK.

YOU WOMAN ARE AMAZING......... I love the support I get here...... And I am accepting the fact that I might not get it outside of my own home and other bandsters and I am going to be okay with that.

It really stinks. Thank you all for the encouragement. I truly want her to be successful. She has struggled for a very long time and she needs to be able to do this for herself and her children. I just wish that we could have done this together and been supportive for one another. Diane you are right about family. I could careless if anyone else supports my decision or what they think but it hurts when my family doesn't. If I could have paid for her to do this with me I would have. I wish she understood that. I hate that she hasn't been able to get approved. But does that mean I shouldn't have gotten it? I tried to tell her today why it bothered me and she just didn't get it. Oh well. Life happens.

pardon my tantrum....

1st CONGRATS on the 10lbs! That is great news! I actually pulled a pair of pants off without undoing the button on them.....HEHEHEHE what fun that is! As far as my incision.....That is the one spot that hurt the most for me but doesn't hurt a bit now.....I am 2 weeks out today. Everytime I get out of a shower I put a little bit of rubbing alchol on it to dry it out. That is what my OBGYN had me do with my cut from both of my c-sections and hit helped a BUNCH! My didn't feel like it was goint to break open but did burn until I remembered the alchol trick. It was almost like it wasn't drying enough before. If it is really hurting it wouldn't hurt to just call your surgeon and run it by him just to double check.

So I am a little over a week post op and finally in a better frame of mind. I am ashamed to be admitting this but hope that maybe it will help someone else. Please no judgement. *DEEP SIGHS* How could I be 2nd guessing my choice....I mean I worked so hard to make this happen and have researched it for 8 years.......but I did. Right after surgery it all hit me like a ton of bricks ....not in the chest but right in the face. And all I kept asking myself is WHAT HAVE I DONE? This surgery that I kept telling myself was reversable was not as easily reversed as I had made myself believe. The minute I walked through my front door all I could think is "this is NOT what I want" and now it's to late!" And the only reason I could say that it wasn't what I wanted ,Swas because I couldn't quit thinking about all the food that I would never be able to eat again. And not getting to eat any food for a week and then knowing I was only going to be on pureed food for another 3 weeks just made it worse. I WANTED TO EAT......and I wanted to sit on the floor with all my favorite foods and .........CRY. I didn't understand this. I couldn't understand how I had become so attached to food and not even know it. A REALLY GOOD FRIEND of mine, Diane, (God Love her) had mention that sometimes we mourn the loss of food like it was a good friend.....and I read what she wrote but apparently didn't listen before hand because it came as a total shock to me. I mean how could I actually be mourning the fact that I might never get to eat a pizza again and even worse, my favorite, spaghetti. (this is where I want to put the LOL but it's not so funny. I am quite ashamed. I truly found myself crying and crying....I wouldn't admit it when my husband asked me what was wrong....but I honestly knew why I was crying even if I didn't understand it myself. This went on for almost a full week. But I am thankful to say I am in a much better frame of mind. The surgery itself, looking back, was really very easy. It's the emotions that I thought I had a handle on before surgery....and then feeling like I was loosing my mind....that has really been the hard part for me. But yesterday was a good day and today was better. I Sat down to dinner with my family finally tonight. I had a very small bowl of pureed chili and I didn't feel like I lost my best friend. I enjoyed our family time. Tomorrow I hope it's the same. THANK YOU DIANE FOR BEING HERE FOR ME EVEN WHEN I WASN'T.

I cook the same way....hehe Thanks...sounds yummy!