vannasmom

Hi, my name is Carolyn. I'm 41, live in Alabama. I had completely made up my mind about a year ago to have the roux n y, but just could not get PERFECT peace about it, so I continued praying, went on to my mandatory inservice required by the surgeon I was looking into and have now found that perfect peace with my decision to have lap band so I'm doing all the research I can and found this site and decided to utilitze it to answer some more of my questions, so it may appear that I am lurking but I'm actually doing a LOT of reading of old posts and topics as part of my research! I appreciate you all sharing this part of your life for those like us who are searching for answers because I am to the point I'm so disgusted with myself I sit and cry for hours!because I am TOO FAT to do things with my kids or even enjoy life hardly at all anymore!!!I'm ready to do whatever!!!it takes to bring positive change about!!!!!I want so desperately to be healthy and to feel better!between high blood pressure, type 2 insulin dependent diabetes, fibromyalgia, sleep apnea, joint pain daily!!!shortness of breath upon hardly any exertion at all! it's gotta go!!!!!I want to LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!