Hi --
1st Congrats on you baby, and I am so sorry for the loss of your twins. I almost lost my twins at the same time (24 weeks) and I can't imagine the grief. ((HUG))
I had my twins before my VSG and delivered them by csect when I was 368 lbs. I was down to my already WAY TOO HIGH pre-preg weight of 326 by 6 weeks post partum. This time, I got pregnant at 12 months out, I was 187 when I got pregnant (12 over my ultimate goal). I gained 41 lbs. I delivered her last June 20th when I was up to 229. 6 weeks after her delivery (still exclusively breast feeding) I was down to 211. I stay between 209-211 now and she is 4 1/2 months old. I haven't lost anything since then. I know I have to many sliders and liquid calories. I have ALOT of restriction and most dense foods get stuck and cause me to vomit. The first half my preg I barely gained anything (2 lbs at 20 weeks because I had hyperemesis) but the second half I realized if I ate carbs I felt better. That is what I am struggling with now. I am tired taking care of my little ones and being back at work part-time as a nurse. When I was in the active losing phase i ate 600-800 cal, 90 gm Protein and kept carbs under 50 gms. I just feel like I can't do that right now. I logged everything on spark people... it was my main focus. Now my focus is on getting through the day with multiple small children. I don't feel quite as desperate as I did when I had diabetes, sleep apnea, astma, arthritis. I am scared though. I would like to feel better now. I would like to fit into my prepregnancy clothes and not feel frumpy. I wish I could say something ultra inspiring to you but the truth is I am struggling too. I feel like I need to eat small amounts more frequently as I am nursing.. I did try the 5 day pouch test and I went into ketosis and felt pretty awful but I did lose 7 lbs doing that. If anyone has any ideas I would be open to hearing them to. Good luck and enjoy your baby!!! :-) Amy