meekone

I'm 41 years old and have struggled with my weight my entire life. In 2004, I started to really put on weight and I've gotten up to my highest weight ever at 264 lbs. I've had numerous health issues related to my weight: Acid reflux, poor sleeping due to snoring, fatigue, joint pain, troble breathing, heavy periods, swelling- not to mention the psychological impact my weight gain has had on me. I was laid off in 2010, and haven't been able to get a job although I've applied for hundreds of positions and been on countless interviews. No one will hire me. I have a degree and over twenty years of office experience ranging from general clerical, to HR functions. I've never, ever NOT been able to get a job. I do well in interviews, and as stated above, I have loads of experience as well as education.
 
My self esteem is at an all time low...my dr. and I decided to look into lap band surgery and she referred me to a number for such surgeries. I'm on a state medical right now because I'm out of work. I called the number, and the place doesn't take my insurance.
I feel so defeated right now. I know that if I could get my weight under control I could do so much more than I do. I don't go out. I don't do anything anymore but stay at home or go to family functions. Now that I was told my insurance doesn't cover lap band, I feel so depressed and like I have no hope.
I've tried weight watchers, online support groups, exercise, changing eating habits, I stopped eating sugar except in my coffee, I visited a nutritionist- I lost 20 lbs when I was working out, but since I lost my job, I can't afford to go to the gym. I put all the weight back on and then some.
I looked into financial assistance with getting lap band, but my credit is terrible right now because of my being laid off. I just feel so terrible about myself. If anyone has any advice for me, please share. I don't know what else to do...
Thanks for listening~