dragongrl75

I am 36yrs old and have been heavy all my life. I have PCOS with IR and Hypothyroidism. I am lucky enough to have conceived 2 beautiful children. My son is 15yrs and my daughter, who was conceived with Clomid, is 4yrs. I am currently on thyroid medication and 2000mg of Metformin. I rarely have periods, have horrible hair growth everywhere, bouts of severe depression and most recently have developed problems with my knees. I am at my heaviest I have ever been. I also have developed sleep apnea since the birth of my daughter. I hate the way I look, hate the way I feel and want something better for myself so my husband and children can have better from me. I have had so many people discourage me from getting this surgery but have a few who continue to be very supportive, including my husband. I just want to be healthy, to have energy and to not have my every thought focused on food. It's all I think about anymore it seems....what's for breakfast, lunch or dinner...do we have the junk food I love so I can have dessert.....I can't wait to have the surgery and embark on a new journey for a better and healthier life!!! I am working on making better food choices now but it is so hard when you have such strong addictive feelings to certain things and I am just so tired all the time I have no fight left in me.