BlkmikeG

I am sitting here literally in tears right now. My surgery is set for tomorrow June 6th at 10:15 am. I woke up last night with a fever and chills, temp 102.3. I am pretty sure the surgery wont continue and my doctor is booked up for months. My journey started a long time ago and required another surgery before this one was to happen. I have worked my ass off for this day and now this. All the hoops and twists and turns, I am just so upset. I know i dont want to be sick before surgery of this type but im just a mess right now. Anyone else had this to happen to them?

Ok, finally back home after 5 days in the hospital. Wow that was so much fun..pardon my excitement. As I stated before, they found 3 kidney stones 10mm by 9mm was the biggest, 8mm and 5 I believe. My kidney function started declining the day after they admitted me thats why I ended up staying so long. They gave me an antibiotic called Zosyn, which apparently unknown by me I was allergic to and had a reaction to it (kidneys started to not work anymore) They finally figured it out and put me on something else, fever went away and I had removal surgery Thursday morning and she got them all. All thats left is to go back Tuesday and get the kidney stent removed and im back on my way. Meet with sleeve doc(dr david kim dallas area) on June 22 to reschedule....They cant pay me enough to give up my fight...I will get sleeved one way or the other damnit!!! lol

Thanks all for the inspiration, I ended up having emergency surgery last night for a 10mm kidney stone blocking my urinary tract and that's where the fever came from. I guess it was a blessing in disguise to find this now and not after sleeve surgery. Doc cancelled the surgery of course. In the hospital now recovering...

June 6, 10:15 am central I will be going under the knife. Its like the weeks and days have passed so fast and I'm really nervous and/or anxious. Mother and friends are trying to talk me out of it saying " why don't you do it the old fashioned way?" I had a cousin that got me soooo upset saying "stop being lazy and get up and jog or something..." Why is it that people have such a problem with our method of losing weight? I told him since its available to me why not do it? If I can use this as a tool to help me in my weight loss struggle, why is this any different from buying a bowflex or a treadmill? The way I see it, this is not gonna be easy either and people are all talk until they get in our situation.....whew.............ok breathe.......lol

my sentiments exactly..........

when I went to mine, they had so many questions regarding death and thoughts of suicide. I was like uh yeah ok, most people that want wls are not immediately suicidal. Cmon, suiciders get a one way ticket to skinnyville.....

I am scheduled to be banded 6/6 and wondering if anyone has the same wierd thought process as me. Briefly, I am 5'9 372 with two kids and a wife that needs me here on earth, thats my motivation. I am having thoughts and anxiety that I equate to a prisoner that has been incarcerated most of his life and just got a release date. I have been big all my teens and adult life(34 now). Its wierd because I couldnt see myself being thinner kind of like the fat has become my "comfort zone" of sorts. I'm on my liquid diet now and its going pretty good but I just cant stop wondering.....am I alone in my thoughts to any of you pre-sleevers?

thanks everyone for the positive feedback, Im taking it one day at a time I guess and we will see what the future holds....

Oops my bad, meant to put sleeved instead of banded....