NAT_Too_Shabby

I got my band put in on 09/14/10.  I took out loans to do the surgery self pay, as my insurance doesn't cover bariatric surgery at all.  Nothing for weight loss will even be considered under my policy.  I did very well up until January 2011.  I was at 6cc's of restriction and I started experiencing projectile vomiting and was unable to tolerate even liquids.  From January to March, my surgeon's office only removed 1.5 cc's and the whole time I was dealing with all of my complications, my surgeon only saw me once.  Initally after each adjustment, I would do well for a week or so and then start having issues again.  I dealt with the Physician's Assistant during everything, the surgeon didn't even remember me from one week to the next and was very sarcastic and rude to me. 
I finally went to another doctor for a second opinion (paid out of pocket as well.)  The new surgeon and his PA are a lot more compassionate and seem genuinely concerned for my well being.  Nevertheless, I'm miserable.  I can't eat or even drink water in the morning.  SOME days I can tolerate food in the afternoon and evening, other days I throw up no matter what goes in my mouth whether it's liquids or solids.  I constantly have uncontrollable burping and it's completely humiliating.  People at work are starting to catch on that I'm not eating and I always seem to have an excuse.  I burp all day long... and I never feel relieved!!  If I never burp another day in my life, it will be TOO SOON.  Even with all this, I'm not losing weight.  I've only lost a total of 26 pounds since September and I'm wondering- is this even WORTH it??? I have never been so unhappy in my life!!  I'm sad every day, I cry constantly... I'm completely shutting down.  On top of feeling physically horrible, I'm $16,000 in debt.  The Dr I got the 2nd opinion from ordered an Upper GI which I'm scheduled to have this Friday.  It'll be my 2nd UGI in 3 months so who knows if my insurance will even consider it.  So that will be another $300 - $400 I'll have to dish out.  HELP me please!!  I desperately need some words of encouragement.  I feel like I can't go on like this.