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I decided to write this blog as a way to get out my thoughts and emotions during this life altering process. To begin I am 28 years old and I have not weighed myself in awhile. Last time I was weighed at the doctor I was around 280. Wow! Embarassed to even write that down and I am sure that it is more now. I will be going though Kasier Richmond. I have my Orientation on Monday Sept 27, 2010 (I will get weighed there so will update). I have done a lot of research so I feel very confident in my decision. Though of course there are concerns. One of my concerns is my boyfriend. We have been together 5 years and when we met I weighed about 170. We both gained weight over the years, it seems like most new couples do. When I brought up the idea of surgery to him he did not seem supportive. Now he says that he is supportive of whatever I decide to do, but he still doesn't like the idea of sugery. He is worried about complications and me dying, (which oddly is sweet and makes me love him even more). I am not sure what I can do to make him more comfortable with the sugery. I know that there can be complications and death as a result, but then being soooo overweight can cause complications and early death. We talked about the process and what will happen before, during and after. I need him to be my rock during this. Is that so bad?
 
My next concern is...will I have crazy flabby skin after I lose weight? I will have to work out like crazy but I think that losing at least a little weight will make working out so much easier on my body. It is crazy how far I have let myself go.
 
I am also concerned about losing hair. I have long hair and I don't want to feel like I have bald spots. I know that being at a healthy weight is a good thing and my worries are mostly superficial, though I can't help my thought process.
 
I want to start losing weight right after my Orientation. I want this process to go quickly. Though I get really cranky when I am hungry. I think my blood suger level gets messed up. So I know that losing the pre-surgery weight is not going to be easy. And I am thinking that I will probably need to lose 25-30 pounds. YIKES!!! I can do it though.
 
I am worried about the liquids and only being able to have liquids and then mushy foods. I am a texture girl so things are gonna need to change for me. I only eat chicken and turkey for my meats and I have read places that chicken is a no no for awhile. Also, I am a carboholic. Lifestyle changes are coming my way.
 
My mom is going to be going through this process with me. She also wants the get the surgery done. It makes it nice that we can talk about things and we even get to go to Orientation together.
 
Well I think that I am all written out for now. Hopefully I will have lots of new stuff to write about after my Orientation tomorrow. Very excited!!!

Well I have been the same weight for 3 days now. 229. I think this qualifies as a stall. I'm hoping it doesn't last long. I know its normal but it still sucks! I want to be under 200 so bad, at least by my birthday at the beginning of april! Well on a good note I started this journey at 291, wearing a 3x top and 24 bottoms. I am now in a 1x top and 18 bottoms! I even tried a pair of jeans that my mom gave me which were a 16. I held them up and was like no way I can get these over my butt, the waist looks tiny, well lo and behold, this butt squeezed into them and was able to zip and button! They were snug but at least I could get them on! 10 or 15 more pounds and they will be nice and comfy! Yay!