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Thanks!!! I am trying to blog a few times a week at least, we will see how it goes though.

I decided to write this blog as a way to get out my thoughts and emotions during this life altering process. To begin I am 28 years old and I have not weighed myself in awhile. Last time I was weighed at the doctor I was around 280. Wow! Embarassed to even write that down and I am sure that it is more now. I will be going though Kasier Richmond. I have my Orientation on Monday Sept 27, 2010 (I will get weighed there so will update). I have done a lot of research so I feel very confident in my decision. Though of course there are concerns. One of my concerns is my boyfriend. We have been together 5 years and when we met I weighed about 170. We both gained weight over the years, it seems like most new couples do. When I brought up the idea of surgery to him he did not seem supportive. Now he says that he is supportive of whatever I decide to do, but he still doesn't like the idea of sugery. He is worried about complications and me dying, (which oddly is sweet and makes me love him even more). I am not sure what I can do to make him more comfortable with the sugery. I know that there can be complications and death as a result, but then being soooo overweight can cause complications and early death. We talked about the process and what will happen before, during and after. I need him to be my rock during this. Is that so bad? My next concern is...will I have crazy flabby skin after I lose weight? I will have to work out like crazy but I think that losing at least a little weight will make working out so much easier on my body. It is crazy how far I have let myself go. I am also concerned about losing hair. I have long hair and I don't want to feel like I have bald spots. I know that being at a healthy weight is a good thing and my worries are mostly superficial, though I can't help my thought process. I want to start losing weight right after my Orientation. I want this process to go quickly. Though I get really cranky when I am hungry. I think my blood suger level gets messed up. So I know that losing the pre-surgery weight is not going to be easy. And I am thinking that I will probably need to lose 25-30 pounds. YIKES!!! I can do it though. I am worried about the liquids and only being able to have liquids and then mushy foods. I am a texture girl so things are gonna need to change for me. I only eat chicken and turkey for my meats and I have read places that chicken is a no no for awhile. Also, I am a carboholic. Lifestyle changes are coming my way. My mom is going to be going through this process with me. She also wants the get the surgery done. It makes it nice that we can talk about things and we even get to go to Orientation together. Well I think that I am all written out for now. Hopefully I will have lots of new stuff to write about after my Orientation tomorrow. Very excited!!!

I am doing much better with my pre-op diet!!! It will be interesting to see how I do after surgery. I still have a bit to go though.

Today is a great day. It is Thursday, which means that there is only one more day in the work week, plus I am feeling good. Since I started my pre-op diet I have lost 4 pounds. Today is day 3. I figure that is pretty good. I weighed myself Monday afternoon after I got my new scale, of course I had just eaten what I call my last meal, Chevy's Chicken Fajitas, YUM!!! Well at that point I weight 293. I am not sure how close my scale is to the doctors but it seems fairly accurate. So if I take that 293 weight from Monday, then I have lost 10 poundsm because this morning I weighed 283. Though I know water weight and time of weighing makes a difference. But hey, I will take what I can get. Eating eggs in the morning is getting more difficult and it is only day 3. I am thinking of switching it up and eating some other type of protein but I am kind of picky. Good news though, I was not tempted to cheat last night when my BF was eating cookies and ice cream (single serving). It didn't bother me at all. I am still struggling getting the energy to exercise. I may just have to do a 15 min walk during lunch today so that I at least get a little activity. Maybe I will do some stairs to get my heart rate up first. I really want to go to my surgeon appointment with a nice weight loss to show that I am ready for this surgery. 9:15-Decided to try the stairs with a co-worker at 10:30. He is in the same boat as I am as far as health and weight loss. I will for sure post how I am feeling afterwards though it may take me some time to get my breath back!!! 10:45- Whew. We did 12 flights of stairs, down and up, in our office buidling. It doesn't sound like much but I sure did work up a sweat and raised my heartbeat. I am still sweating but it only took me a couple of mins to get my breath back. Now I at least feel like if I don't work out tonight that I got a workout in. Another positive thing about working out is that I no longer feel hungry. Though I am sure that will change in 30 mins or so! 1pm- I would love a naptime right about now. At least I only have 2 hours of work left for the day. My body still feels pretty good from the stairs. I am wondering though if the turkey is making me sleepy. I have heard that turkey has something in it that makes people feel tired after eating it, you know like on Thanksgiving day after dinner you are tired. Though that could be from overeating. I guess I will have to look into that. 1:30pm- Just went down 12 flights of stairs and then walked for 10 mins outside. It is warm out there! Felt good though. Woke me up.

So Orientation was very informative. I weighed in at a whopping 291. Yikes!!! I have an appointment with the surgeon on Oct 15th. So I am starting the pre-op diet to start to lose the weight that the surgeon will reccomend. We went to the store and I got a scale, a food scale, and some food to start. Today was the first day eating smaller portions and goodness I was hungry. Through Kaiser they want you to eat 3 meals a day and NO snacking. So for breakfast I had, at 6am, 1/2 cup of egg beaters, 1 oz fat free cheese, and a yogurt. I was pretty hungry by 9am. So I drank a bunch of water, it didn't seem to help though. For lunch I had 3 oz of deli sliced turkey, 1 green apple, and a yogurt. That was at 11:45. Dinner time felt like it was forever away. I had to wait until my boyfriend got home from coaching flag football, the team won. He got home around 5:30. I know that seems early to eat dinner for some but since I go to work at 6:30 in the morning its not to me. I feel okay right now. I am tired and a little weak feeling. I would think that after a few days of eating this way my body will get used to it. It is challenging but I think that it is good to start early and get used to eating smaller amounts.

Wow! I hope mine goes as fast. I go to Orientation through Kasier Richmond tomorrow!!!

Hello, I am going to orientation on Monday at the Kaiser in Vacaville. I am so happy they offer the orientation and some appointments at Vacaville. It is much closer to Sacramento then Richmond is. My mom also wants to get the sleeve done and its great that we were able to get an orientation date together. Does anyone know the average weightloss required pre-surgery? Is it 10% of your body weight? I have seen conflicting numbers. I am sure that I will have more questions after orientation!