Hi Tamz,
Thank you so much for your post. I am one week out today and I have felt as though I should be able to do more, feel better, and not be in any more pain. Well I realized that I am not giving myself credit for the things that are better. I read so many posts where others come home with no pain, are able to do things and have little to no problems. I also have someone very close to me who went through a bypass several years ago and he did not even have to take the pain meds after the first day he was home and was able to sip fine. I remember telling the doctor the first time he came to see me in the hospital and I told him I was in a lot of pain and he was surprised saying, "really most patient's are not in that much pain." I have felt disappointed in myself at times thinking that I am a wimp and I should be doing better. So, what I do is try to remember that everyone is different and no one is going to experience it the same. I was so happy that last night was the first night I slept through the night without meds and still did not take them until I absolutely needed it around 11am. I also was happy when I tried Crystal Light fruit punch this morning and i loved it and was able to take bigger drinks. I am also happy that I was able to take a walk outside that was longer than I had before. So all this to say I am trying to look at the positives and not the negative. I do see everyday as getting better and not setting expectations so high. The one thing that makes me not regret my choice is when I stepped on the scale this morning and I saw that within the first week I had lost 11 lbs. I think that is pretty fantastic. So I guess we need to take the bad and the ugly to be able to reach our ultimate goal of health I am praying that you will be able to focus more on the positive and less on the negative and that you soon are able to see change. Keep us posted and please feel free to vent anytime.