Well, It has been a few weeks since I've blogged.... I guess I should use this blog session as a confessional. Got my third adjustment in January wherein I achieved great restriction. That's what I was waiting on....the kind of restriction that stop me from eating. WRONG!! The band doesn't make me stop...I have fought it. I found a way around it....I haven't been following rules as I should. It is totally my fault that I haven't had more than 3lb weight loss in one month.
All I thought about was good restriction before I got it....after I got it I found a way to fight it. My doctor said my meals should never be longer than 20 min. I eat sometimes for 40 min. I thought I knew how to stop after 20 min. I had practiced it for 6 months prior to my surgery (Sept. 2011).
I seen my surgeon today and he said those horrifying words that I already know deep down "YOU ARE A FOOD ADDICT and you have to change your mind-set so you can change your behavior". I know its true. But, at this point, I really don't know how to let the band work for me, instead I am finding myself fighting the one thing that can help against my addiction.
Although frustrated and aggravated, I refuse to give up. I will keep trying. I have 6 weeks before my next appointment and I am determined to have at least a 6-8 lb. weight loss. I just gotta figure this thing out. I thought I already I knew....
