I was 14 years old when I realized I was fat. A boy said he would date me if I had liposuction like twice. I remember the hot tears that burned my cheeks that night was I cried myself to sleep. Weighing in on my grandmother's scale and having it tell me that I was over 200 lbs in 8th grade. I have been since then. In all honesty until the day I met my husband I only went out on dates if I asked. Growing up in a faith that encourages marriage, and in late teens or early twenties at that, I thought that I would spend my entire life alone. All the hurt and pain and stories, I have them, but to make it short and sweet. I was blessed enough to meet a wonderful man, my match. A man who loves me despite my weight (which was 305 lbs when we married). After battling with my high blood pressure, and Gestational Diabetes, we were blessed with a beautiful baby boy. He is the light of my life. We have a good life, but what I really want is to be healthy. I want to be able to keep up with my son for a few more years, and to be a healthy example for him. I've fought this battle for years. I have lost myself and gained myself twice over if not more. It's my turn to see the skinny girl who is hiding behind this face. Maybe even eventually be able to have a healthy pregnancy, and another baby. I'm having my surgery with Dr. Thomas Umbach on March 4, 2011. I can't wait to begin my transformation, and to become a healthier me.