I can relate. I am not someone who takes surgery lightly. I have about 80 pounds to lose. I have decided that this is all going to be worth it. Once the weight starts dropping, all of the pain will take a backseat. I start my pre-op diet April 19. Right now I just want to get through those two weeks. The decision to get the surgery has become my new goal. I want to live the rest of my life as normal as possible. I don't like how I feel and look now. I'm tired of being the fat one in the room. I am going to keep a weekly photo diary and measurements so I can truly appreciate what is happening to my body.