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Thanks for responding to my post Valentina. Im happy to hear from u. You made good sense by saying what the hell.....thats just how I feel right about now. Nothing else has worked, and I feel like hell !!!! I have a 12 yr old boy, and only a sister who has her issues. Everyone else is gone, cause I came after 18 yrs of marriage. Ultimately, you r right Valentina....I should just say ....the hell with it, so it already, and get it over with and God willing.....I will at least make it out alive!!! I would love to pm u and talk more. My email is ursiegirl2007@aol.com When r u being sleeved ? Im scheduled to be sleeved in Hackensack. Anyway, Good luck to u Valentina....and keep up the good work Thanks for all the advice and for taking the time to read my novel

Thanks for all the advice Kelly. I definitely need counseling, and will the rest of my life!!!!!!!!! This eating has taken a major toll in my life, as im sure it has most of us, and we all have our stories and issues!!! but yes, therapy is a must. I feel like Im at that point in life where I need to do something or im going to die, and I cant cause I have a 12 yr old and no family members left. I think I need that restriction in my life of the sleeve, cause I dont see it happening any other way. I keep thinking maybe it is a God send...since I am going to be open anyway having hernias repaired, so might as well go for it once and for all! Anyway, keep up the good work. I have read most of ur posts, and see that u r a go getter, and know exactly what u want in life!!!! Thanks for the advice/sharing Kelly

Sasicas, I will never be ready to eat small amounts of food. I can never do it on my own. I will be having open surgery anyway, with them repairing my hernias, so as the surgeons said.....lets just do it once and for all and get it over with. I know I will be neurotic. It will be major, major for me, but I am at that point in life where I feel like im literally going to die and something needs to be done! I keep having hernias which get stuck, then winds up to be a bowel obstructions and they cant go in anymore. I have no muscle left holding anything together inside. If I have this surgery, and make it out alive, I will have no choice but to do it. Im not doing it any other way. Iit's very scary, as im sure we all experienced. My sister had the gastric bypass 5 yrs ago, and claims she is eating as she used to pre-op....so, I know its alllllll in the head, and I know there is no going back. I also know it didnt quite hit me totally yet!!! Anyway, thanks so much for sharing. You r so right in what ur saying, and I realize it has to be a 100 % commitment! Keep up the good work and thanks for all the thoughts and info

You're soooo right Grannyk. I do need this surgery physically. It's the mental/emotional part of it all I cant handle, but in a way I feel like I will go crazy not being able to eat all that food, but im not doing it any other way....so I feel like I need this restriction in my life and I should give it a shot. I have a 12 yr old, and no family members left since I was born after 18 yrs of marriage, so if anything happens to me.....I have my poor son to worry about. That is what is making me crazy all together...but ultimately I feel like I should just take that chance. Anyway, thx for sharing/reading my novelllllllllllll lol Keep up the good work

Wowwwwww, ok....so I see I am not the only one who eats like this. My sister had the gastric bypass 5 yrs ago, and lost a total of 100 lbs pre and post op. She says she is the only one that loss that little amount of weight, and she says u cant imagine what I eat now urs. She claims she is eating as much as b4, soooo I know it's all in the head, but with these surgeries, u cant eat that much. The only reason y my sister is eating as much is cause her surgeon left her pouch bigger than he would have normally, cause he was aware of the eating that went on in my family and was afraid to restrict her totally!!! I do need to get involved with some sort of program like OA or something! Anyway, thx for sharing Griselda. Keep up the good work. Very inspiring story. thx

Thanks for responding to my post Ahoy. I never even heard the word leptin, so I will definitely look into it now. It is my whole family that ate like this. My dad (deceased now) told me stories of how he used to go to the hot dog man for lunch and down like a dozen or more!!! till the guy told him JOEY....GO HOME! UR GONNA GET SICK!!! It's terrible, but again thx so much for the info.....and good luck to u on ur journey

Thank u for ur kiind words Raine, and thanks for sharing. I know we have all experienced major events in our lives relating to food/addictions/etc.....I thought I was the only one who ate this way, but im seeing that im not alone. I was always under the impression that people got heavy by eating an extra meal or an extra piece of cake or ice cream, but I see that is not the case. Im glad u made the most important choice in ur life to do this wls, and ur on ur way to a new you. Thanks for all...and keep up the good work! Very inspiring story

You know ultimately Christina that is how I feel. I keep saying to myself....im gonna do it, im gonna just take a chance like anything else in life and just do it for my son.....and God willing, one day I will be finally able to walk with him and take him to the movies, and maybe even play football with him lol......instead of ONLY GOING OUT TO THE DINER WITH HIM TO EAT But ur right. Thanks for the advice. You have confirmed that im thinking on the right track...and I really need to do this and take that risk for a good cause. Thx again Christina and keep up the good work! name='christina420' timestamp='1306090613' post='153832'] Wow you are certainly in alot of pain. I So sorry. Wish I could reach out and hug you. You have a child? That should be your deciding factor to do this surgery. You must let you child see you heAthy mind body and soul. Nothing is more important than that. If it were me it would be well worth any amOunt of risk. Do it for your kid! You may surprise yourself and be successful this time NEVER give up and especially never give up on yourself.

Thank u all for responding to my post. I was so ashamed to post something like this here, but if not here, where else? so I thought ok, let me get some feedback on this topic. Anyway, u all have very good advice and suggestions for me, and I appreciate it . This surgery is so very major in all our lives, I know, but I have this massive compulsion with food. To boot....the reason for all these hernia repairs and the erosive esophagus was cause I have been battling bulimia since I am 5 yrs old!!!!!!! YESSS 5. I could remember feeling like there was something wrong, how my family ate like this, (feasts every day) and remember going in the bathroom after each meal, running the water, putting on the radio, etc... to drown out noises. I had a cousin that lived upstairs who was older than I . I thought I had started this bulimic journey at the age of 12 cause I saw a movie about bulimia and thought ahhhhhhh.....the answer to my prayers. But...my cousin said NO URS...u were doing this from about the age of 5. She said she used to fight with my mother and tell her to stop feeding me. Anyway, there is a lot more to the story with the eating and all, but I know we all have our stories, and can go on forever....and some of us compulsive ppl can go on and on and on and on lol (all directed to me Ultimately, I do feel like I want to do the surgery. Im not afraid of the surgery itself, but all the ailments I have. I know it will be extremely hard for me, but I know I need to do something nowww!! By the way...I have been in therapy most of my life for these eating disorders, and by the grace of God and lots of physical ailments I have been bulimic clean for 12 yrs Although it will always be a part of my life, I had no choice but to stop cause I was so sick. I feel if I have this surgery, and makkkkke it, it will be the same thing....(restriction) and I will have no choice but to stop eating. I mean, im not doing it any other way, and definitely not getting any younger or better! Thank u all for listening. Again, sorry for the novel

I was not sleeved yet, but..... I have had 16 abdominal surgeries.....hernia repairs/bowel obstructions, etc...with drains and all. I developed cellulities on my stomach that was so bad one time it looked like snakes, and day by day it got worse. I was on a high dose of antibiotics for 14 DAYS THE FIRST TIME , but The thing is.....TAKE MY ADVICE PLZ....NOT TO SCARE U OR ANYTHING ......KEEP ON TOP OF IT BECAUSE IF U HAVE PAIN (AS I DID), AND I WENT BACK AND FORTH TO THE SURGEON COMPLAINING.... HE TOLD ME IT'S OK, IT'S OK....NOT TO WORRY.....WELL ULTIMATELY, I MOVED TO ANOTHER STATE IMMEDIATELY AFTER, AND WHEN I SAW A SURGEON IN JERSEY HERE, I WAS TOLD 14 DAYS OF ANTIBIOTIC FOR THIS WASNT GOOD ENOUGH SO FLUID BUILT UP INSIDE AND EVENTUALLY IT HAD TO BE SURGICALLY DRAINED. LIKE I SAID.... NOT TO SCARE U OR ANYTHING, BUT IF U R IN PAIN....DO WHAT U HAVE TO .....TO GET THE SURGEON TO HEAR U ....CAUSE (IM NO DR NOR NURSE), BUT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOOOOOOO MANY SURGERIES WITH COMPLICATIONS AND INFECTIONS, AND I REMEMBER THE SITE GETTING BIGGER BY THE DAY!!! AND THE PAIN WAS CAUSE OF ALL THE FLUID INSIDE. THEN AGAIN, I DID HAVE LARGE POCKETS INSIDE, FROM PREVIOUS SURGERIES WHICH ALWAYS BUILT UP WITH FLUID (WHICH IM SURE IS NOT THE CASE IN UR CONDITION) , BUT STAY ON TOP OF IT ANYWAY, and dont wait till next wk if u see the site getting bigger, or ur still feeling pain. I waited sooo long, and just accepted what the surgeon told me (its ok, its ok, its ok) when it wasnt!!! then I had to take 800mg of one med and 125 of another for 6 months!!! then eventually wound up with MRSA!!!, AND NOW IM SICK AS A DOG. THIS IS NOT TYPICAL FOR EVERYONE. I DO HAVE EVERY AILMENT IN THE BOOK ALSO, WHICH MAKES THINGS BAD FOR ME. SO U DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT STUFF LIKE THIS, BUT MY POINT IS...JUST DONT WAIT....GO A.S.A.P IF U DONT FEEL RIGHT. HOPE U DONT MIND MY 2 CENTS, BUT I KNOW WHAT UR GOING THROUGH. I FEEL UR PAIN........................... FEEL BETTER

Thanks for all ur advice Tiffykins. I will be having it done open for sure, cause the hernia repairs will be first, and from what I understand, that in itself will be a minimum 7 hr procedure, then the bariatric Dr will come in and sleeve me. Anyway, ur so right, I am not living a full life, and I feel like I really need to take the risk, but thanks for ur response, and advice. You r a major inspiration to everyone on this site. Keep up the good work, and thanx again

Tiffykins, it seems u have been through way too much from what im reading, but I must say....u r a wonderful inspiration, and so very knowledgable . Im wondering if through ur journey, u have read or have known anyone who has been sleeved with every co-mobility in the book? I am one of those people. I gave birth at 475 lbs in 1998, and have worked my way down to 320-330 (fluctuating for yrs now) In addition, I have had 4-5 hernia repairs, as well as 4-5 bowel obstructions, gallbladder removal, appendectomy, c-section, and more. At this time....I have an additional 3 hernias that need repair, and a hiatal hernia too. I have lupus, and my intestines r completely out of line....hanging way low below my pelvis area which is what the surgeon showed me on the cat scan! Soooo, the one surgeon who will re-allign the intestines and repair the hernias is saying....we will go in and do what we can but...u need to get to the bottom of the problem...which naturally is the morbid obesity, so we need to do some sort of weight loss surgery, and we think the sleeve would be best for u. I am terrified cause I have a 12 yr old son, and I practically live my life in bed. What id like to know from u is....have u come across anyone on this site, or anyone else that has been in my position and was sleeved. I have also had major infections...including cellulitis and mrsa....I am very sick...I hope u dont mind me writing to u, but as I mentioned earlier...u seem to be quite knowledgable and have been through major stuff. Thanks for listening. Any advice, suggestions u can give me would be greatly appreciated

Meggie, I was not sleeved yet, but...with 16 other abdominal sugeries, I can tell u I have had bruises like that. My entire stomach on the bottom was completely black purple, and I mean bad!!!! so I can say that is normal, but........I am no doctor, nor am I a nurse, so have someone check it out, JUUUUUST TO BE ON THE SAFE SIDE, but my guess is, it's normal Feel better

I have been having food funerals since I had my first appointment with the surgeon back in February!!!! It is getting ridiculous now. I was just ready to post yesterday, something like.....I gained nearly 25 LBS PRE-OP, NO JOKE instead of losing weight, Does this mean theres no hope for me??? Then I got a call from my surgeons office telling me they've postponed my surgery till July now cause im having multiple surgeries, and the surgeons cannot coordinate their time together, but yessss I have been eating everything and anything I can and cannot get my hands on, and things that I normally don't eat!!!! I feel like this is the veryyyyy biggest thing of my entire life, and im eating like I will never eat again! Only last night, I didn't sleep a wink, cause my sugar was 500 and rapidly going up and down so I was so scared to close my eyes, YET....U SHOULD SEE ME NOW....IM LITERALLY SITTING HERE HAVING AN EGG BEATERS OMELETTE (THE WHOLE PINT) AND TWO CHICKEN HOT DOGS FOR BREAKFAST!!!! THIS IS MY DIET LOL IT'S NOT FUNNY, I KNOW...AND MY SISTER WHO HAS HAD THE GASTRIC BYPASS 5 YRS AGO SAYS "IT'S ALL IN THE HEAD, AND NOTHING MORE" Anyway, good luck to u. Eventually we WILL get it together. A lot of people have food funerals b4. I dont require pre-op dieting either, but when it comes closer to the time, we will just do it and that will be it!!! and no sooner be sleeved. Keep in touch Good luck to u

Ohhhh Gosh I just realized this post was from 2009 lolllllllllllll. Sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Hi Barbara I have not had my sleeve done yet, but my sister had the gastric bypass surgery 5 yrs ago, and for both of us, our lives revolved around food 24/7. Im talking....300 LBS in the 3rd grade! Feasting 7 days a wk. My father had 18 brothers and sisters. We were together every day. My family knew nothing about nutrition. If we didn't have 4 different kinds of pasta, 4 different types of meat, and so on, we couldn't go out to play, so that type of eating was instilled in us from very young. We couldn't walk back to school after lunch, cause of the size of lunch we ate, every day. I have been through every eating disorder out there, and today, at the age of 46, with EVERY ailment in the book, being a MAJOR BINGE EATER, AND MY SISTER AS WELL, The surgeons r telling me the surgery will save my life. I am very scared, cause we never knew breakfast, lunch, or dinner. We ate round the clock. Ultimately, my sister lost 100 lbs total (including pre-op diet for only 4 days), but.... she walked around with sugar of 500 on insulin every day pre-op, and had other ailments too, yet now with all she eats (5 yrs post op), she is still 100 lbs down. No, it's not the greatest, but she is so much better off today than she was b4 the surgery, and although she has bad days, she is so very happy she did this when she did. I feel like I cant live without eating a whole chicken for lunch, and a whole bag of salad with the works. This is every day, round the clock, so Im petrified of what will be afterwards, but...from all the research I did, and all the stories I hear on this site and others, I PERSONALLY THINK THAT IT WILL WORK OUT. MAY TAKE ME LONGER THAN SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T BINGE EAT, AND IT MAY BE REALLY HARD FOR ME TO DEAL WITH, BUT IM GONNA GIVE IT A SHOT. If my sister is able to keep that hundred lbs off, believe me when I tell u, the surgery will do justice. Of course it's only my opinion, and it's all up to u. Im sorry for the novel, but just thought I had to share all that. Good Luck to u, and may God Bless U in whatever decision u make

HI I just want to say, this is THE NICEST POST I HAVE READ SINCE IM WITH THIS SITE!!! It is sooooo inspiring, sooo real, and it just hit home! I am scheduled for my sleeve on June 13th. In the last month, I have eaten more than ever!!!!!!!!!!! and Im sooo disgusted with myself, cause I actually gained nearly 30 lbs, but.....after reading ur post this morning, I feel so much more enthused to start my pre-op diet today, and keep it going, just because..... I AM REALLY TIRED OF BEING SICK, AND (NOT BEING ABLE TO SHOP AT LANE BRYANT STORES IN YRS) SHOP ONLY AT BIG AND TALL MEN, AND for so many other reasons. June will be here faster than I can blink. I need to do this too. Thank u for this inspiring story. Keep up the good work, cause I know u r soooo excited, and u will be a big success!!!! May God Bless u

Good Luck to ya tomorrow Michelle. Jersey Prayers coming ur way. May u walk into that OR tomorrow without a fear in the world!!!!!, and say ....... later people...as I just said to Kelly.....and b4 u know it, you'll be opening ur eyes asking when they r gonna start....and it'll allllll be over with!!! Wish u well.....plz keep in touch, and may the heavenly angels surround and protect u

New Jersey Prayers coming ur way Wish u all the best. Im happy to hear ur not nervous for Monday. 11:30 is a good time, cause ur not the first one in the morning where the surgeons eyes r half open, and ur not the last surgery at 4pm where the surgeons rushing to get home!!! so ur goodddd!!!!! Anyway, I will keep u in my prayers, and hopefully u will be able to walk into the O.R. on Monday and say ...."later people"!!! and you'll be out like a light!!! Good Luck Kelly quote name='kellyw74' timestamp='1304727981' post='147041'] So, I just got my phone call telling me my surgery time for Monday!! I have to be at the hospital at 11:30!! I was hoping to have an earlier time, but I guess I should be thankful I don't have to wait til 4:00. LOL I don't know if I am weird or something is wrong with me, but I really do not feel anxious or nervous at all. It just kinda doesn't seem real to me. Kinda like I am in denial? I don't know, maybe by Sunday I will feel something, but for now, it is just another Friday night! Pray for me that I will come out o.k. without complications. I wish all of you the best!! Kelly

lollllll lol lol now that...... is one question I have been trying to find the answer to.... for a long time, and thx to u, you finally answered it for me!!! I have been asking around.....how do u feel after eating??? Do u actually feel like u had a thanksgiving meal lol, and u can walk away, just like pre-op? or what?. Of course the head hunger will always be there, i'll speak for myself on that one anyway , but I'ts hard. I saw my surgeons in Jan, and because I have medicare only, they were able to schedule the surgery when they wanted, and there is no pre-op diet nor any 6 month wait or anything like with other insurances, which is not forcing me to do anything. I am going to start some sort of diet hopefully this wk. It's supposed to be beneficial, but ultimately I have 4 weeks left, and reality is starting to set in big time!!!! I can just imagine what i'll feel like a few days b4! Anyway, thx for responding, and keep up the good work

I just want to say thanks to all of u who responded to all my posts. When I get notified, I cannot seem to get back to the responses, so I thought I would thank all of u here. Im scheduled for the sleeve June 13th, and although it is a ways off, I should be pre-oping it! Instead, I am sooooooo darn nervous, cause of all my co-morbilities, I am feastinggggg every day!!!!! I am eating moree than ever. How ridiculous I know. Did this happen to any one of u pre-op?????? Thx again all, this is a wonderful site!

Hi I hope u dont mind me asking u this, but r u from jersey, and if so, did u ever hear of Dr hans schmidt out of hackensack???

Ohhh wowwww, nice Im from northern jersey, but being sleeved in hackensack. who is doing ur surgery if u dont mind me asking? Good luck and lemme know how it goes!!!!

Sounds like what I used to experience, along with sweats. The pain is kind of dull, but annoying. I was constantly rocking myself back and forth. Wish ya lots of luck. Its a very annoying thing to deal with, but I had laparoscopic surgery and I was up and walking around and helping the girl next to me on and off her bedpan! Also, for Breakfast the next morning they gave me whole milk, bacon and eggs. I was amazed. I had to ask the nurse to check the order twice! Good luck

Wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, absolutely fantastic Keep up the good work!!!