LyMarie

My name is Lymarie, I am 27, wife and mother of 2, ( 7 and 2 months) I had my surgery March 31 2011, it's been a year since my surgery. I was 281 pre-op, 271 after liquid diet and at the time of the surgery. I got pregnant 3 months post op, at that point i had lost 15 lbs and weighed 256 the day i found out i was expecting. I've struggled with PCOS since I was 16 & have been obese my entire life. I don't remember being under 200 even as a pre teen. My most recent pregnancy was planned but since i have pcos we.weren't expecting for it to happen the first month of trying. I had a good uncomplicated pregnancy and only gained 10lb. Today I am back where I started, I weigh exactly 256 lbs, the same I weighed on July 18 2011 when i found out i was pregnant. My band has been filled 3 times in a year. I'm not sure how much is in there or how big or small the band is. Here's my problem; I can't seem to get below 250 lbs no matter what I do. I do have to admit that after signing up on my fitness pal, I realize that my choices on foods are not the best. I have a terrible sweet tooth, I can say I eat emotionally and out of boredom. I get full with my meals, but for some reason I can't get myself to stop, especially if I don't feel satisfied, I'm embarrassed to say that sometimes I rather make myself throw up so i can keep eating what ever i was eating than just quit eating that particular food. I don't do this with all foods or at every meal but I do do it. I feel like a failure. I feel like I've wasted my time and the time of every one who has helped me or supported me. I have no problem working out, I actually enjoy it, Zumba, yoga, pilates, spinning etc, i work out an average of 8-9 hours a week. I want to be successful. I want to be happy, I want to be healthy, I want to be respected, noticed, I want to look in clothes how in my imagination I think I look in clothes, once I see myself and realize that I don't look as I imagined it's depressing. My marriage is depending on my weightloss, my happiness depends on my weightloss. My family depends on my I feel like i had the surgery, then that was it, I never had any.direction or a way to correct my actions. I'm looking for any guidance or suggestions on how to get this going, please?

Hi everyone! I wanted to give y'all a quick update on my progress; since posting this a few weeks ago, I've applied some serious changes to my lifestyle. I no longer force myself to eat more than I can. I began going to a psychiatrist, there I was diagnosed with post partum depression (it all makes sense now) and put on an anti depressant, I will meet regularly with a therapist this way I can sort out the issues I've been having all along. I'm also exited to say that this morning I weighed myself, only to find out that I FINALLY made it out of the 250's. Today I weighed 245!! That is 11lbs! It may not seem like much, but I AM STOKED!! Thanks to everyone for your suggestions and your encouragement. I wouldn't have found my encouragement and motivation had I never posted my story on here. I'm so close to my short term goal, I can almost taste it!! You guys mean a bunch, thank you!! Lymarie

I posted this in another forum but I'm not sure if it was the right one: My name is Lymarie, I am 27, wife and mother of 2, ( 7 and 2 months) I had my surgery March 31 2011, it's been a year since my surgery. I was 281 pre-op, 271 after liquid diet and at the time of the surgery. I got pregnant 3 months post op, at that point i had lost 15 lbs and weighed 256 the day i found out i was expecting. I've struggled with PCOS since I was 16 & have been obese my entire life. I don't remember being under 200 even as a pre teen. My most recent pregnancy was planned but since i have pcos we.weren't expecting for it to happen the first month of trying. I had a good uncomplicated pregnancy and only gained 10lb. Today I am back where I started, I weigh exactly 256 lbs, the same I weighed on July 18 2011 when i found out i was pregnant. My band has been filled 3 times in a year. I'm not sure how much is in there or how big or small the band is. Here's my problem; I can't seem to get below 250 lbs no matter what I do. I do have to admit that after signing up on my fitness pal, I realize that my choices on foods are not the best. I have a terrible sweet tooth, I can say I eat emotionally and out of boredom. I get full with my meals, but for some reason I can't get myself to stop, especially if I don't feel satisfied, I'm embarrassed to say that sometimes I rather make myself throw up so i can keep eating what ever i was eating than just quit eating that particular food. I don't do this with all foods or at every meal but I do do it. I feel like a failure. I feel like I've wasted my time and the time of every one who has helped me or supported me. I have no problem working out, I actually enjoy it, Zumba, yoga, pilates, spinning etc, i work out an average of 8-9 hours a week. I want to be successful. I want to be happy, I want to be healthy, I want to be respected, noticed, I want to look in clothes how in my imagination I think I look in clothes, once I see myself and realize that I don't look as I imagined it's depressing. My marriage is depending on my weightloss, my happiness depends on my weightloss. My family depends on my I feel like i had the surgery, then that was it, I never had any.direction or a way to correct my actions. I'm looking for any guidance or suggestions on how to get this going, please?

Thank you everyone for your feedback and suggestions. I actually have set up an appointment with a therapist, this way I can sort out other issues with myself beyond my weight. Like I mentioned, I recently had a baby (9 weeks ago) and I'm really afraid of developing post partum depression, so this is another reason for me to see a specialist. Since writing this post on Sunday, I've been very careful with what I eat. Cutting out candy and other sweets, I have succeeded with stopping when I'm full or it starts to feel like it's going to get stuck., I've also been logging everything I eat and all my workouts. I have not weighed myself so I have no idea if my weight has changed any.

I have bcbsil, they approved my surgery on the first try, i got a response about 10 calendar days later. They only required me to do a 3 month supervised diet and 2 yrs of medical history

I'm the OP, I'm not pissed off at any of the comments. In fact I agree with pp, i have to get a grip of myself,i have to dig deeper, but honestly, I don't know where to start. for the question if i felt restriction, i do feel restriction just not satisfaction. I feel full but not "full" if that makes sense. When I decided to have this surgery I met with a nutritionist she said you can't eat this this and this. That was it. I met with her almost a year before I actually had the surgery. I knew I had to make some changes but i didn't know what to change. To lose weight it takes more than just eating less or different, it takes will and mental readiness and determination, I'm determined but I just can't figure out how to get ready.

I live in Orlando but my doctor is in Tampa by memorial hospital, his name is Wilfred Aguila 8138776000

before pictures (teal top) was during the holidays 2010 after pictures were about one month post surgery, about 30 lbs less!

My name is Lymarie I am 26 years old, hispanic, wife, mother and pharmacy technician living in Orlando. I have been struggling with my weight for as long as I can remember. I found out I had PCOS when I was 17 days after a 91 day menstrual cycle. I had been considering the lap band ever since I found out my insurance would cover it.... Then I was able to lose about 65 lbs on my own, so I stopped my considerations of the lap band... But, that quickly changed once about 37 lbs of the 65 lbs I lost came back...I lost them again, I gained them again and so forth... My highest weight ever, was 321 lbs... I never saw myself that heavy, even though the scale doesn't lie... I am happy to say that I stuck with my choice in having the lap band. Today 4/4/11 has been 5 days since I got banded.. I am not quite sure how its going to go, all I know is that it's done now. At the time that I started the diet yo pre-qual for my insurance I was 282 lbs, I lost 6 lbs on the home diet in 3 months and after my insurance approved the surgery I lost 16 lbs on 2 weeks of the 800 calorie Optifast liquid Diet. Right now, the future is uncertain, as I don't know how much I want to lose and in what time frame.. All I want is to be able to enjoy whats left of my 20's, whats left of my youth.. Enjoy my child while shes still a child and my husband while he's still fit and sexy , I want to have another child before I am 30... So I guess the amount of weight I have to lose, is what ever number or amount it is as long as I can acheive those things, amongst other things that being 282, 261 or 321 I would not be able to, such as skydiving or comfortably getting on the rip ride rocket at universal studios without being worried that the seat is going to come open. I am seeking as much support as possible as I do not know any one who has had this procedure... Im the oddest looking one of all my friends, its always been that way..