Brown Bear: I just finished reading your post and all of the wonderful posts that others left for you as well. We are all in this together. . .all of us have gone through similar feelings and relationships with food. Monday will be my 3 month *sleevaversary* and I cannot believe the difference this surgery has made in my life. My relationship with food as totally changed. It just happens. Once you realize you can't eat very much, pretty soon your brain gets on board too. Thanksgiving was really scary for me because I have historically been able to consume a tremendous amount of food on that day. But this year, I took a small spoonful of everything I wanted and put it on my plate. My hubby said "that's alot of food for you, are you going to be ok?" I ate slowly and over the course of about 2 hours was able to have everything I wanted - but it was a tiny fraction of what I would have normally eaten - it was just more than the 2-3 oz he was used to seeing me eat. It was fine and I was "Thanksgiving full" just like everyone else. Thanksgiving finally made me realize that I was really going to be ok with food. It's been an amazing journey and I feel so in control now - not like before when I would overeat and then think "what have I done to myself?".
I am so utterly thrilled with my sleeve (and I had a really tough first two weeks) that everytime I see someone that is overweight I want to tell them about the sleeve!(I don't, of course, but I sure want to!)
I have been battling weight all my life . . . I would have given anything to be able to have this done at 25 instead of 57 :-)
Keep in touch with all of us and let us know how your surgery goes! You'll be so excited once you are on the other side! I promise!