MustangAli

I dont even know if I can call it a stall, because its my own fault. I have been drinking a lot, and eating food that is bad for me. I literally get grossed out by the THOUGHT of eating. Then when I do eat, things just dont taste good, and I end up feeling sick after. The only things that sounded good, tasted good, and didnt make me sick are things that I shouldnt be eating. Mainly chips. I am not going to lie, I was on a white cheddar cheese its kick for about a month. Ive noticed that since the sleeve, I go through phases about a month or 2 long where I crave the same food, and will eat it non stop. Cucumbers were one. Cheese. The cheese its. Teriyake chicken. Anyway in June I finally got under 200lbs. I stayed between 191-195 for 4 months! Finally last week I broke though and went down to 187. Today Im at 189, but whatever! LOL So it's officially been 100lbs since I started this journey. I found this picture...I am pretty sure I was at my heaviest...had to be pushin 3 hundy...maybe more. Im absolutely disgusted by it, and I am almost embarrassed to show people. Then I have a pic of me now. I turned the pic so I could put them side to side in the dual shot pic. And the comparison blows my mind. I still have no self confidence. I still see the same fat girl when I look in the mirror. Maybe if I look at these pics enough I'll snap out of it.

Thank you all SO much! Longer-life, I am happy,..I mean as happy as im going to be. I have suffered from depression my entire life & nothing has really changed as far as that since the surgery. It hasn't been constant as far as being disgusted by food. But it's definitely more often than it should be. Everyone is different, so please don't let my story scare or discourage you. I still enjoy some foods & it's really day to day. Some says the thought & smell of chicken almost makes me vomit. Other days...I eat chicken 3 times a day. It's hard to explain...but if you have more questions, I'll definitely try!

The beer and candy are nothing compared to how much better I feel. Looking at these pics gives me a better buzz than beer ever could!

Thank you all so much! Such sweet & encouraging comments! You are all amazing! <3

Beautiful <3 Im happy for you!

Thank you all so much. It's nice to hear such great things. I still see the girl in the first picture when I look in the mirror. But the pictures speak for themselves. Im going to post more!

I havent been doing so well lately. I discovered things that I heard would hurt my stomach, actually dont and have been having them more than I should. (Beer & candy) So Im posting a pic to remind myself how far Ive come and also to share with you all. =) 1st pic was a day before surgery, 2nd was June 5th. (less than 4 months out) in the same outfit .