tawns74

Hello, my name is Tanya and have been addicted to food my entire life. Growing up food was the only thing that was there for me on a constant basis. My mom left when I was a child and I was the only child left with my alcoholic father who wasn't around much so that left me alone with a house full of food. My father died when I was in high school and my weight progressed consistanly from there. I then entered into an abusive marriage and once again my only escape was food. I would eat until I could'nt eat anymore. After a few years I was able to get out of my marriage and relocated to a new state with my 3 month old and 3 year old daughters. It has been 8 years now and I have been on many diets where I would lose and then fall off the wagon and gain it all back and more. For the last 7 years I have tried for weight loss surgury but have repeatedly been denied saying that I wasn't sick enough. In nov. of 08 I developed diabetes and thought maybe now I would be sick enough. I started the process of jumping through all the hoops once again and it took me months to complete. I would'nt here anything so I would contact the dr. and they would need more diet history info. Months went by and I had given up once again when out of the blue I got a phone call in feb. saying I had been approved. I was at school at the time and didn't know how to react because I didn't believe it was real. Finally after a couple of weeks it sunk in that my life was gonna change drastically. I was sad for a while because I don't know life without all the food I consummed. I realized I was 37 years old and where has food gotten me? It has brought me heartache and pain along with self lowthing and depression. I was finally banded on march 15th 2011, a day I will never forget. I love to watch the biggest loser now as it is a great motivation to live a better life. I finally feel I deserve to be happy for the 1st time in my life. I can absolutely see the light at the end of my tunnel now...