TStew

I'm 41 and I'm so tired of the yo-yo dieting and I'm so tired of being fat! Ten years ago I got divorced, lost my job and quit smoking all at the same time and I gained over 50 lbs. I fought to get rid of it and lost about 30 in two years time and then I ended up gaining about 70 and I'm at my all time highest weight ever of 270 and I feel and look like total crap.

Never in my life have I been thin and I'm actually a little bit afraid of being 'too thin'. Will I like myself? Will I still be me? Will I still have the fat girl 'nice' personality? Scary but I'm ready to change my life and obviously I need help to do it. I'm afraid of doing something so drastic but I need drastic chances in my life so I'm considering a December 2010 surgery with Dr. Alceves in Mexicali. My insurance will pay 100% for a bypass or band but I'm not comfortable with either of those. Going to MX for surgery scares the crap out of me but after reading so many glowing reviews and doing a lot of research on the doctor I think this is right for me.

I totally appreciate you all sharing so much information!