SarahS

YEAH! Congrats!!!!! I can't wait to get to onederland!!! Congrats again, and what a great way to start a new year!!!!!

Congrats!!! You are doing awesome!

Congrats! You can really tell!!! You look great. But you are beautiful in both the before and after pics You are going to look STUNNING when you are done with this weight loss journey!!!

Awesome!!! Congrats!!! What a great way to start the new year!!

I'm sorry, but you seriously made me LOL about the shit the glue stick! :lol:

I love Miralax too! It works very well. And it disovles completely and has no taste. I also add benefiber to my fluids every day. The benefiber disolves well too and has no taste or texture. I don't add the miralax everyday unless I am having a really bad week in the poo department

I have seen previews for the show. Does the girl really sleep with the blow dryer ON? I feel bad for them all, but for some reason the girl with the blow dryer made me crack up. I know that is probably mean! But, the commercial just makes it look so odd! I can't wait to watch the show. I think it starts tonight on TLC.

The last few days I have been extremely depressed. I am not sure why. All I want to do is sleep. Today I started feeling sick (sore throat, congestion), so not sure if that is part of the tiredness. I have bad dreams, some about people that aren't in my life anymore, that meant a lot to me, and then I wake up so sad and I can't get out of the funk all day. I have been crying just out of nowhere too. The last 2 days I have been walking almost 2 miles, and then come home and just sleep. I have been on Lexapro for years for depression and it has helped. It just seems like it does nothing now. I am only on 5 mg. Maybe I should go to the dr. and have him increase it? I am 12 weeks out now. I was kind of depressed the first few weeks, but then it got better, and now its way worse. I am on my period too, and its still getting back to normal, so maybe that is part of it too. I have been losing weight pretty fast, I guess, (70 pounds in 12 weeks) but I have 204 pounds total to lose. Can losing quickly cause depression? Or do you guys think its just everything combined? I also don't have a job and have been having so much trouble finding one, and its really been bothering me a lot lately. Maybe it will just get better on its own with time?

Today is 10 weeks since my date of surgery. I stepped on the scale today and was at 293!!!! I was SOOOO excited that I recently got under 300, but now I am blowing thru the 290's, LOL. I lost 5 pounds this week, for a total of 63 pounds since surgery!!! I lost 13 pre-op so that makes a total of 76 pounds!!!! Sometimes I think I am not losing fast enough, but then I look at the weight I have lost and am like, WOW! I started at a size 30/32 and sometimes couldn't even fit into a 4X in tops. But today, I am wearing 3X tops and even some 2X in mens t-shirts. I am wearing a 24 in jeans I am so glad I got this surgery. I have hard days, but overall, I am so happy and excited I did it, and it feels soooo good when clothes get lose on me and I have to go down another size :) My goal was to lose 100 pounds by 6 months and I think I will have no problem with that and might even lose the first 100 before that mark. I am not sure if these are normal feelings, but sometimes I get scared that I am losing the weight. It sounds kind of dumb, but I feel safe being overweight. Don't really know how to exactly explain it. I feel more vulnerable at a lighter weight. But I know I will be heathier when I am at a healthy weight. Also, I know its normal, but its so strange, that I don't see the weight loss like others do. I can feel my clothes getting lose, but I don't see it in the mirror. It's so odd. I also fight everyday the "bad" thoughts in my head, the bad stupid eating disorder thoughts of "just don't eat today, you will lose faster" , or "throw that food up, you ate too much". I wish those thoughts would LEAVE forever, but I am doing pretty well at fighting them. Its an everyday battle. Keeping track of calories and weighing myself multiple times a day can get obsessive. I also feel kind of guilty for having the surgery, or a failure because I coudln't lose it on my own. I know that is stupid and I don't know why I feel that sometimes. After surgery my surgeon said my stomach was HUGE, he even had to make an incision bigger to get it out, so there was probably no way I could have ever lost the weight on my own because I would have always been hungry. I also haven't been following my diet the nutrition gave me. I have been eating Cereal a lot and I feel like I am cheating. But I am still losing so I guess its not hurting me. Maybe I could lose faster? I think I am one of those people that can still lose on carbs... well obviously I am. I think my body just functions better getting carbs. I know all that sounds like a lot, but I am glad I had the surgery. I am sure I would be even closer to 400 pounds now if I wouldn't have had the surgery. My eating was so out of control. I can't believe how much I use to eat....how much I could eat. I have a lot more better days than bad right now. I am glad I can walk to my mailbox and not get out of breath. I am glad I can take a shower and not have to sit down right when I get out. I am glad I can play more with my dogs. I am glad I save LOTS of money at the grocery I am SOOOO glad that I didn't get bypass. That was my first choice before I know about VSG. The surgeon actually suggested VSG. I am SO glad I went with it. I would do it all again. My goal for the next few weeks to is start exercising! Hopefully over the next month or so I can get to the half way point!!! Only 20+ more pounds till half way, WOW!

You are doing awesome!! You are almost halfway at just 3 months out!!! I will be 3 months a week from today! I can't wait to get halfway to my goal weight! I will look forward to seeing your before and now pictures!!!

Just a quick update, or not so quick . I am 12 weeks post-op today. I lost another 4 pounds this week, even with the yummy Christmas treats! I weighed in at 286.0 today!!! I let myself eat anything I wanted Christmas Eve and Christmas day. I just decided I wasn't going to deprive myself and not beat myself up and eat some Cookies and other yummy stuff. And I didn't go too crazy on the treats, but I did eat a lot of "bad" stuff. I had potatoes covered in chesse, bacon, stuffing, cinnamon rolls, chocolate, etc.. So now I am back on track and feeling fine. I am not really craving the junk, luckily! I started walking yesterday and hopefully I keep it up. Hopefully all that food doesn't catch up with me next week, but if it does, thats okay. So, I have lost 70 pounds in 12 weeks :) That's an average of 5.83333333..... pounds a week, LOL! Not too bad. And that makes 83 pounds total from my highest pre-op weight!! (about 3 weeks before surgery). I am feeling pretty awesome. Most of my family at Christmas said how great I looked, but they all know I had surgery. So, I am not sure if they were just saying it, but I thanked them anyway My hair is starting to fall out, but I will deal with it. I might have to invest in some hats. I have a big head, so I never was really a hat person. Last week was my last meeting with the nutritionist. I didn't know that was going to be our last meeting!!! I think that is so early to stop seeing her! She said she thinks I will have a 6 month check up with the doctor and she will come to that. I just feel like I need someone still to help me and to have someone that I know is going to check up on me ( I can't think of the word right now). I didn't tell her about the throwing up, I just couldn't. I might call my old therapist to see if I can start seeing her again. I know it will probably just get worse if I do nothing. I just feel so alone now! I am glad I have you guys here! Hope everyone had a great Christmas!!! I did! I got lots of awesome gifts! A new Droid X phone, a sewing machine, gift cards to get new clothes , and a trip to Hawaii in May!!! Wooohoo. Hopefully I will be down a lot more pounds by May so I can really enjoy my trip!

Thanks! I will have to try those shampoo's. I don't color my hair or do anything to it, but maybe I shouldn't put it up in a ponytail so often

My surgery was at 7am and I think I didn't get out of recovery until 130pm. It took me forever to wake up and I don't really remember being taken to my room. I heard people talk to me in my room, but it took a while until I could open my eyes. I was in A LOT of pain so they kept giving me pain meds, so I am sure that added to me taking forever to wake up. In recovery they kept asking me to rate my pain and all I could say was "I HURT!!!" Just my mom was there but it wasn't like i could visit with her because I was so out of it. My aunt works at the hospital where I was and she came to see me too, but other than that, no visitors. I wouldn't have wanted any really. When I am in pain I hate noise! I didn't even watch tv. I just slept or listened to others in the hall, LOL. It kinda irritated me when I was half asleep to hear people talking loudly in the hall or close rooms, so I am sure it would have been really irritating if I had visitors that were talking to each other in my room. My aunt came to see me the next day around 1pm but I had just gotten sick and they gave me pains meds and anti-nausea med so I was knocked out. I was allowed to leave that afternoon, late, but my mom picked me up around 8pm. Good luck tomorrow!!!!

My hair is falling out too!!! I will be 12 weeks out tomorrow. I was hoping it wouldn't happen because my hair is already thin! For those of you who lost hair and had regrowth, how long did it take until it started to come back in?

Great job!!! Congrats!

I have had cereal with milk with no problems.

Congrats!!! That is GREAT!!! You look so much different already!!!! GOOD JOB!!! You look great!

Thanks for the tip!!! I will have to go buy some. I have been wanting hot chocolate SO bad. I drink the Premier protein shakes from Costco but I think they would be nasty if I heated them up. I will have to try the carnation.

Do you guys think that your tummy "fat" could be extra skin? I know I am going to have a lot of skin in that area. Also, it is VERY hard to lose fat in that area, especially for women. You are suppose to have some fat in that area, that is how we were made, to carry babies, etc... But I totally understand not wanting it there!!! About 7 years ago, I was at my lowest weight ever, around 160 pounds, and I think I obsessed about my body more. I even notice now that as I lose more and more weight, I keep examing my body more. But that might be because of my eating disorder. The more I lost, the more obsessed and the more faults I found. And, I am sure none of us wants to hear it, but you do carry more fat as you get older, its just a part of aging.

I just checked the brand, they are called OLE Mexican Food. They are 71 calories for 1 tortilla, 5g carbs, and 8g protein. Sometimes I do turkey in them or chicken. I usually only use a half of one. I made tacos a few weeks ago, and put the tortilla on my George Forman grill and melted the fat free cheese on it, YUM! I found them with the other tortilla's at the grocery. Here they are: XTREME WELLNESS HIGH FIBER LOW CARB TORTILLA WRAPS http://www.olemexicanfoods.com/OLEmenuTortillas.htm

I have done the same thing. I found wraps that are only 70 cals, and I think very low carbs. I will check on the brand later. I put pizza sauce or spagetti sauce on it, fat free shreaded cheese, and turkey pepperoni and/or turkey bacon. YUM!!! Not as good as full fat pizza but still pretty tasty!

I wrote a month or so ago how I have struggled for years with eating disorders. Last time, I could not tell my NUT. I wanted to so bad, but I just couldn't get it out. I felt so dumb. Its hard for me to talk, at least when it's about something so personal. I have always been that way. I am just afraid she won't care. I know that sounds stupid. UGH, I don't know what to do. I see her next week and want to tell her. I made myself vomit again today. I don't want to ever do it again, but thats what I told myself last time. I have thrown up only 2 times since being sleeved, but that is 2 times too many. So, I just wanted to see if I could get some advice on how to tell her about whats going on. I think the main thing is that it is just so hard to say those words.....eating disorder. And to tell her that I lied. I know I need counseling. I am going to work on that.

I feel like I am posting a lot, but I just had to share a few more victories! I hope everyone isn't getting sick of all my posts So, tonight I figured out how much weight I have lost in a percentage. I have lost 20% of my body weight!!!!!!!!! That is so awesome to think of it that way, and I am only a little over 2 months post-op. Not sure if this is NSV or not, but it shows that I am getting healthier everyday. For probably 2.5 years, I did not have a period. Instead, I would bleed ALL the time. It was horrible!!! I went to a GYN but felt like she blew me off. She put me on meds which made me want to kill someone so I stopped taking them. I just put up with it for tooooooo long! So, after surgery, I stopped bleeding for a while and I was SOOOOO excited. Then, I started to bleed again after a few weeks. It was horrible heavy. I almost went to the ER it was so bad one day. Then, it stopped again after 6-7 days like a normal period. Then, I didn't have any bleeding for 30 days!!!! WOOOOHOOOO. I had a normal period this week that lasted about 6 days, and it wasn't heavy like last time. Sorry if this is TMI, but I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited. I went to a new GYNO before surgery, and she didn't know if I had something going on or if it was just because of my weight. She said sometimes you can bleed because people with more fat produce more estrogen and that makes you bleed non-stop. Not sure what it was, but pretty sure its nothing serious or nothing I need to take any meds for!! I think my body is finally getting back to normal!!!!!!!! :) :) Oh yah, I guess this is another NSV. I have been off my BP meds since a few weeks post-op, and no more diuretics either! I don't have pitting edema in my legs anymore Gosh, so much is happening so soon after surgery, and I am still very overweight at 296 pounds.... wonder how great it will be when I get to goal!?!?!?!

Congrats!!! It's an awesome feeling to see that scale move, in the right direction!

I did not experience any gas pain after surgery. I just felt bloated. I had a surgery about 8 years ago for an ovarian cyst where they went thru my navel, and I only felt bloated after that too. Hopefully you won't get the gas pains. The gyno that did the surgery 8 years ago told me that they try to get out as much gas as possible before they are finished. I believe he told me that they press on your abdomen. Not sure if its that easy. But its impossible to get it all out. I do not think it matters how good the surgeon is. Everyone is different so everyones body is going to react different . I did have pain after surgery, but just at the incision sites. I was not able to get out of bed until the day after surgery, but when I did walk, it helped a lot with the bloated feeling. No matter how crappy you feel after surgery, try your hardest to walk no matter what. Its hard at first (well it was for me) but it helps A LOT! Also, when I got home I took GasX, so I am not sure if that helped too. I was just so scared to get the gas pain.