samantha209

Thanks guys! It's definitely motivation

hey all! Just saying hello. Hope everyone is doing great! Haven't been on in awhile.

currently I am single...but while i think losing weight will open up a new pool of men, I am totally nervous.... the prospect of having sex with someone new with loose skin petrifies me Has anyone had to tackle that? It seems most of u are luckily married

just an update: I had my sleeve 4/11/11 just over 4 mos ago. I have lost almost 90 lbs 44 before and 45 since surgery. Pleased with the results...but lately i have been slacking. My sweet tooth is the devil i have good days and bad days. I am not gaining but i know i am slowing my weight loss. HELPPPPPPPP

Wow good to know!!! I am due for an appt next month. I will contact my doctor next week and see if he can fit me in sooner. Thanks Tiffy!

Hey guys I had a breaking point at work on Friday. I was in the bathroom crying. I think I'm just frustrated with these guys. They think its flattering that all of a sudden they're paying me enormous amounts of attention but they have no clue. This guy I've know for a few years had been texting me all week being suggestive & sexual and I've been blowing him off. So Friday morning he starts again and I shut him down. I'm like didn't u try to get with my cousin. And he's apologizing and saying he's just joking and flirting etc. But he's never been like that before. So obviously its because I'm losing weight. And he goes on to say how he really liked my cousin etc. And that was like a knife in my heart. Like oh he likes my cousin but I'm only good enough for sexual advances. So that upset me. Oddly enough I don't even like him like that but it was still extremely hurtful. I know there is more of this to come. I am ok now. Just had to get that off my chest. Men are so shallow. Its like even with everything I have to offer I'm second best. Frustrating. Then I tell my mom, and she goes on to say well the reality is men dont like "fat girls" and although there are a few who like plus sized girls most dont. Then she says "why should they pick a fat girl when there are appealing alternatives". This convo was over the phone and she doesn't know that she made me cry...but that hurt....I know ppl are shallow especially towards fat ppl but the reaction is showing me the reality i ignored for years

Breakfast (830)-4 ozs cottage cheese snack-1030-hard boiled egg lunch-2pm-3 ozs broiled salmon w/ laughing cow low fat blue cheese wedge snack-pollyo 2% string cheese (430pm) iced coffee-6pm dinner-8pm-ground turkey/cheese combo calories-730 cals 78 gms Protein water-80 ozs i will be honest...i have been falling out the wagon lately...with snacking etc...today was my GET IT TOGETHER day...i think i have done well today, and hope to stay on track. I am almost 4 mos out

almost 4 mos out and havent had it yet...craving it though

i have had rice with sushi but not alone...i have had bread but small portions...

lol

my scars are raised in some incision sites (i had 6) and not others....i am not really sweating it because they are thin...some ppl say mederma works but I am not sure...

thx for the sense of humor guys

thanks again guys for the encouraging words. i deleted him off my blackberry, facebook everything. I know it may be harsh but necessary....lots of sprkng cleaning in my life right now

thanks Guys....i have always been confident but the last few years relationshipwise etc has done a # on my self esteem. I feel i can only be as confident as was society has shown me...and society isnt kind to the overweigbt as for him no he doesn't work with me but my meltdown occurred at work...

i hate it but when you overeat it is the BEST feeling omg....lol

I had surgery 3 mos ago and honestly I haven't shopped yet i bought one item which is the jeans i have on in my profile pic....the good thing is I had a lot of clothes that were tight so they're fitting now...a lot of my clothes are big but I also dont want to spend unnecessary money...especially for work clothes...i will shop for functions...

Throwing up is very weird to me...I have done it 3 times since surgery. There are times I eat a lot (or what I think is a lot) and not thrown up and there are times i feel i eat less and i do. I think it has a lot to do with the density of the food eaten etc For example the 3 times i have thrown up 2 of those times i ate salmon and the third time i had chicken breast and brocolli where as if it is a soft food i can eat a lot more...hope this helps

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