NewLeaf2011

I've been struggling with severe hypothyroidism for about 8 years. Prior to that, I'd been overweight but it didn't really get out of control until my thyroid went on the fritz. Now we're finally getting a handle on my levels but my metabolism is still shot. All my efforts at losing weight seem to fail. Finally, my endocrinologist told me I would just always struggle with losing weight. At 100+ pounds overweight, I wasn't prepared to live the rest of my life this way, so I decided to look into WLS. To my surprise, I got approved right away (Anthem Blue Cross CA), and the ball started rolling in a matter of weeks. Now I'm worried I'm taking this big step -- a very permanent and drastic step -- and I'm not sure I gave everything else a try. I guess somewhere in the back of my mind I feel like I still could do it on my own if I worked out like a madwoman every day and ate only 800 calories a day. The truth is, I don't want to live that way either! So many of the wonderful testimonies I've read on this board tell about months, if not years, of working toward getting this surgery. Have I given it enough effort? I tell myself that my surgeon and my insurance and my PCP must feel it is necessary and I've done enough since they're all supportive, but I keep second-guessing them. Do the second-thoughts and self-doubts go away or is this a sign I need to step back and rethink this?

Thanks, everyone, for your responses. I am really working on focusing on this surgery as a tool for success in the overall journey. I can do this!!

I'd love to read this! Thank you for being so generous with your time and energy. You can email it to me at cndgoltz@sbcglobal.net. Debbie