For me: I had a great childhood, but a mom who cooked southern fried meals. She weighed 120 pounds but My Dad and his side of he family were obese. They loved food and the bigger the meal the better. My mom tried to keep my eating in check but I had a skinny little sister who ate two times more than me and didn't gain an ounce. Growing up I had two doting grandmothers who loved to cook for me and my favorite meal was Gravy and Biscuits....My One Grandmother was pretty blunt "I love to make you Gravy and Biscuits and I love to watch you eat, but it makes you fat." I was probably 10. How is that for boosting self esteem? I would sneak food or extra portions, but they were always there. I never felt full...ever. I really didn't and still do not care about the sweet stuff, but I love to be full from regular foods. There was always chips or snacks growing up and we ate out a lot. (That is still a hard habit for me to break today and I have only gotten my lapband two weeks ago.)
I think I really gained weight in my later teens and twenties and then spun even further up the scale when I moved out and got my own home. The biggest discovery for me was at age 27 getting the Hypothyroid Diagnosis which justified the diofficult in losing weight. The doc said I had probably had it since I was 16. Makes since as that is when the weight really crept up. But even having the thyroid medicated, I could not lose..finally married and had one baby, still battling the climbing numbers. Found a doc to give me Armour Thyroid med and did much better when I tried, but it was never fast losing weight. So I would just go back to the old habits. Lots of friends and family to eat out with and plan meals with and it goes on and on.
The last three years I have spent trying to keep my BMI under 40, so I could qualify and get my little girl home from China. I did it but as soon as we got her home, I have spent the last 6 months eating whatever I wanted amd again the scale numbers climbed. But now with being in my 40's and two small kids at home, it was time for something ...this tool to help. I pray this is the help I need as I can lose, even if slowly, but I tend to gain it all back.
So I am banded for two weeks now and praying I can do this and not fail at yet another weightloss help.